Random Sanders Sides Stuff

Kittens

Tw:Attempted suicide, depressing thoughts, mentions of anxiety/panic attacks, let me know if I missed anything
Virgil's P.O.V.
I stare down at my shaking hands, closing my eyes in terror. Another panic attack, and thus another transformation. I wait anxiously, gasping slightly as I feel myself start to shrink, despite the fact that it's happen so many times before. I open my eyes again, looking down at the tiny black paws where hands and feet used to be. I hop onto my dresser, the fear and panic fading away as the warmth of my fur starts to calm me. I'm a tiny black kitten, purple patches of fur under my eyes where my eyeshadow would be. I stretch my muscles, growing re-accustomed with my body. As long as I stay in my room I'll be fine. I hop back down to my bed, snuggling into my blankets. I allow myself to drift off into a peaceful sleep, for once not thinking about what will happen if someone sees me.
I wake with a start, someone's in my room. I glance down at myself and groan, I'm still a kitten. I scramble out of bed, crawling underneath it and behind the boxes. I hear footsteps and freeze, staring intently at their feet. I let out a silent breath, it's only Patton.
"Kiddo? You in here?" He calls out, standing in the center of my room for a moment. My tail starts to move slightly, as it always does when I feel in danger, like any cat. Unfortunately it hits into a box, causing a soft thump.I curl into myself more, holding my breath again as he gets down on his hands and knees to look underneath. He freezes as my stupid tail makes it into the edge of his vision, before screaming. I jump, causing a loud thump, which only makes him scream louder.
"What's the matter Patton?" Logan says worriedly, instantly appearing in my room.
"I agree padre, what has got you screaming instead of coming down to breakfast? Did the emo nightmare scare you?" Romans asks with annoyance, rising up in my room as well. Of course he still thinks I'm the one who did something to hurt Patton, I knew he'd never accept me truly. It still hurts though, especially since we've been getting along really well after the  Crofters video.
"Something moved!!" Patton screeches, pointing underneath my bed. I shrink back even further, barely noticing the the thump that sounds as I hit the wall, panic overtaking my mind again. I let out a small whimper, making Roman growl in anger.
"Why would Virgil keep something trapped under his bed? It's in pain! That idiot." He says loudly, getting down with Logan to move the boxes. I whimper again at the volume of his voice, pressing myself further against the wall.
"Look what he's done to the poor thing." Logan says quietly, reaching out gently towards me. I hiss, glaring at him. I did nothing to this 'animal', l because it's me, why are they so quick to blame.
"Kiddos, I'm sure he did nothing to the kitten." Patton says calmly, looking marginally less frightened than before. I nod slightly, my glare softening as I look up at him. He kneels down again, reaching out to me. I hesitantly step forwards, I just know this is gonna be a hell of it's own.
"Why'd he accept your hand but not ours?" Roman asks frustratedly as they all stand, Patton holding me in his arms gently while Logan just shrugs.
"Maybe because I wasn't so quick to blame Virgil, he is Virgil's cat after all." Patton says, a disappointed look in his eyes. I nod again, making everyone look at me in surprise.
"You can understand us?" Roman asks in shock. I nod, glaring at him again "So you must love all people who are kind, as Patton was. Well I'll have you know I'm the nicest person-" I hiss at him angrily, what kind of idiot does he think I am?
"Roman, I think the cat knows your history with Virgil, and isn't appreciative of how you were willing to easily believe that Virgil did something to his cat. I apologize for thinking the same, but it only makes sense that the cat is anxious, especially about meeting new people." I nod gratefully at Logan, at least someone understands. Of course, he still thinks I'm actually a cat, but it's close enough for now.
"Thankfully we're in the mindscape right now, or I'd be sneezing up a storm!" Patton says with a smile, stroking my head softly. I'm at least glad I don't purr, it would be too embarrassing if they saw me change back. Not that it wouldn't be otherwise.
We spend a few hours with themjust doing their normal activities while I watch, before the storm hits. I'm sitting on the couch with Patton, watching a movie when Roman rises up, a furious expression on his face. He flops down angrily beside me, glaring slightly. This gains the attention of Logan, who marks his place in his book before coming over from the kitchen where he was reading, sitting next to Patton.
"Of course, the one day Virgil is nowhere to be found, he screws everything up." He exclaims angrily, making me flinch.
"What happened?" Patton asks gently, not noticing.
"He made Thomas overly anxious over nothing this morning while we were in the middle of finding his cat! Thomas almost passed out, he could barely breathe!" Oh. I guess that the cat form doesn't keep me from affecting Thomas if I'm still almost having an anxiety attack. At least I didn't have a full one, that would've been a disaster.
"Perhaps Virgil was simply very anxious at the time." Logan suggest calmly, but Roman ignores him.
"It doesn't matter his excuse, he's gone too far this time! Thomas had the gall to yell at me since I was the only one there! What does Virgil do for him anyways? He's completely and utterly useless." I stare up at him, before slowly nodding. Now everyone stares at me again, shock evident on their faces once more.
"Are- are you agreeing with Roman?" Patton asks fearfully, his voice barely above a whisper. I nod again, more clearly this time, it is true. I hop up and walk over to the computer, leaping onto the desk and opening a blank document. They all follow me silently, some of Roman's anger replaced by slight fear. I start slowly typing on the document with my paws, carefully pressing each key to make sure it's correct, earning a gasp from Patton as the words appear.
He is worthless. Why is he even alive? It would be better if he just died, he'd never end up hurting Thomas even on accident. You all want it too, so why is he still alive?
Guilt flashes in Roman's eyes, but it's quickly replaced with even more anger, fury radiating off of him.
"See?! Even his pet wants him gone! He knows the truth! He knows Virgil better than any of us do, that's why-" He pauses abruptly, his eyes widening as he glances back to the screen "Wait, the cats only just met us today, and I'm the only one who's shown anything like that. Why would the kitten say all of us don't want him here?" He asks, guilt starting to lace his tone. I press a few more keys before bolting away, running as fast as I can to the imagination.
Signed,
~V

I let the tears start to fall as I sprint into the forest, not bothering to stop as I feel myself start to change. I start getting bigger and bigger, until I'm only running on two feet. Now paws, but feet, sneakers appearing back on them as my hoodie morphs back into shape. I hear pounding footsteps and someone yells my name, but I pay no attention to them. I run even faster, panting as I finally reach my destination. The cliff. It's got to be over 1,000 feet tall, (304.8 meters for some) and it's most certainly deadly. It would be like jumping off a skyscraper, no chance of survival. I stare down at the bottom, barely visible from this height. I slowly start walking towards it, a sense of peace coming over me as I do so. I hear the snapping of twigs and footsteps drawing nearer, but I don't react, simply continuing forwards.
"Kiddo no!" Patton screams, launching himself forwards. I whirl around, quickly catching him from throwing us both off in his desperation. I lift him up and gently set him back down a safe distance from the edge, before taking one final step towards the edge. Roman an Logan sprint out of the forest, not bothering to catch their breath as they see my position.
"Virgil, please don't jump." Logan says, tears streaming silently down his face. I stare at him blankly, why would he want me alive? I only hinder Thomas, that's should upset him. Why does he not want me gone?
"Virgil, I'm so sorry for everything I've said! I was just angry, I didn't mean any of it, I swear on my life. Just please don't leave us, not like this." Roman is crying harder than either of them, guilt clear on his face as he sobs quietly. I hesitantly take a step forwards, towards them. Luck just seems to love me though, because at that moment the edge of the cliff starts to crack from all the weight on it, making me jump. My anxiety goes into overdrive as the end starts to fall, Patton reaching out desperately to try and save me, but I'm frozen with terror. I feel myself starting to shake, and before I know it I'm shrinking, shrinking until I fur is surrounding me, my weight lighter than before. The cliff's crumbling slows and I bolt forwards, climbing my way up a tree as fear consumes me. I feel myself start to lose consciousness, and the last thought in my mind is that I hope they're alright, before my vision fades to black.

Whoo! Two in one day! Sorry for the angst, I was trying to make a fluffy oneshot to be honest. Whoops.