(Book 2)When Amy's forced to move away Chris wont let go of the love they shared for each other. Amy is determined to get her parents to move back so she can be with Chris when he needs her the most. But how will not seeing each other everyday effec...
I'm not gonna lie its harder being back then I thought. I guess I just never really thought things through fully but then I don't miss my other school one bit. I was tired of walking in there scared of what fight I would get into next. It got to a point where I had just given up and I didn't think that anything would ever change. But then Chris came and I remembered what I had to fight for.
But lately its been kind of difficult with Chris. We spend time together but we never really talk about what we are. I guess I shouldn't really worry but at the moment its all I can think about. I spent all of last night just talking with Sarah and Abbie and even they were confused. But then I guess part of me kinda doesn't want to know. I mean I want to get back together with Chris its just I'm afraid that he might not feel the same way as me. Ugh, why dose being a teenager have to suck so much. I mean you never know how you feel and then when you kinda know how you feel you have to know how others feel or if the feeling you think your feeling is really the feeling that you feel. (A/N: just to confuse you 😁). Any way now I'm just sat on my bed thinking about what I should do.
My phone buzzed on my bed and I knew exactly who it was. It was Chris trying to start yet another awkward conversation. I guess I've let my feelings interfere with us because lately its like neither one of us know what to say. Besides I don't even see him that much anyway, he spends most of his time in school whilst I'm here being home schooled. I guess after everything that happened in my other school I just wasn't quite ready to trust school just yet. I know its silly and that I shouldn't let it bother me but it dose. I imagine walking in there looking around and all I see is people wondering things about me. Why am I back? Where did I go? Why isn't she smiling? Those kinds of thoughts. The kind of thoughts that don't even need to be said out loud because you know they know exactly what your thinking. They've probably had it said to them countless times, but it will never change anything. I am who I am and if they cant accept that then oh well.
Anyway I decided not to answer my phone and just leave it for a while. But then it buzzed again and again and again. Then finally I picked up my phone and opened my messages.
C- hey C- how r u today C- hellooooooo C- cool so now we're playing the ignoring game C- fun A- hey C- u r alive! C- well who would have thought A- Alright alright calm the hell down A- I was in the shower C- sure...... A- I was! (I'm so gonna get some seriously pay back from him for this). C- moving on C- how r u today? A- usual A- u? C- eh A- whats up? C- the sky A- if I wanted that answer I would have just looked up now wouldn't I. C- idk u can definitely have ur thick moments A- SHUT UP! C- come on u know its true A- yes I know its true but still A- no need to rub it in. C- love ya ;) (Do you though?) A- Love ya 2 A- now stop dodging my question. A- Whats wrong? C- clever to change the wording so I cant say the clouds C- its just.... C- idk I guess I'm just not really used to seeing my sister pregnant and all. A- yh I can see why thats hard for u A- but just remember she's still the same person C- a person who lied (Is that how you see me. Am I just the person who broke you?) C- hey u okay? C- you've been kinda quiet. Did I say something A- I'm fine C- thats the biggest lie any one can say C- Amy? C- Amy? C- seriously r u okay?
I switched off my phone. I don't know why I stopped texting. I never really know. Not lately anyway. I guess it just gets to a point where I just don't want to talk anymore. Ive spent my whole life talking but it never seems to make much of a difference. Not really anyway. Like bullying, I talk, the bully goes away and another one comes. Feelings, I'm always gonna feel the same. Its like every time I talk the problem doesn't go away, not really, it just gets altered but at the end of the day its the same damn problem you tried to get rid of but couldn't. I don't know maybe that makes me weird, but its true. We just deny it to ourselves. We just try to trick ourselves into thinking its a new problem but at the end of the day a bully is still a bully and your feelings are still your feelings.
My phone finally stopped buzzing and part of me was relieved but then another part of me couldn't help but think: why did he give up on me? I hate it when I do things like this but at the end of the day its just who I am. I'm never really gonna change and I guess I'm fine with that. I picked up my phone and I saw that chris had sent me a photo. I opened my messages and looked at the photo.
C- don't forget who u r Amy. Don't forget us.
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A-..... C- what. A- but u already have C- what do u mean C- I'd never forget us. A- not us. A- me C- I don't understand what you mean. A- I bet u don't even remember what today is. C-..... A- happy birthday Amy
