Claimed••CAMREN (G!P)(Paused)

Thirty Seven

Camila didn't have to be told. She already knew, and she was admitting it.

Camila fucking loves Lauren Jauregui and there was nothing she could do about it but accept it. It was hard though. It was hard to accept the fact that she actually loves someone.

Camila tried her best not to wake up her dad as she walked passed him in the living room. He was sat in his chair with a beer in his hand and his eyes closed.

Camila knew her mom was out working and she couldn't wait any longer for her to get back to eat. She was hungry now and she needed food. Only if she could get to the kitchen without her dad waki-

"Karla?" He called out.

Camila whimpered and looked around her to see if she could hide, but before she could crawl in a bottom cabinet, her dad came in and looked at her.

"What the hell are you doing? You know you are only allowed to eat once and that is when your mother gets back." He got closer to her and the small brunette froze.

She flinched when he put a strand of hair behind her ear. He laughed at her reaction.

"You've grown up to be a very pretty young girl. Too bad no one will ever love you in the future." He sighed contently at himself.

"Hell, you're already sixteen and I can bet no one has showed any interest. You're just not lovable and don't deserve anything." He hissed in her ear and Camila painfully shut her eyes, holding back her tears and praying for her dad to go away.

She let out a shaky breath when she heard footsteps disappearing behind her. She couldn't help but agree with her dad. No one will ever love her because no one wants someone as useless as her.

Camila took a deep breath and shook her head. He's gone. He can't have control over her anymore.

Time really passes by very fast because two months had already past since Camila last saw Lauren. She currently sat outside, smoking and looking at the sky. The sky seemed like the only beautiful thing that did not leave her. It didn't abandon her. Because that's how she felt.

Abandoned. She felt abandoned by the green eyed girl she loved.

Camila hadn't tried to go back to her since the accident. She hates to think back to it. She reminds herself of her father and it makes her angry.

It is like he is haunting her. Like if he were getting back to her. Camila just can't seem to get rid of him no matter what. That's why she thinks it's best to stay away from Lauren.

Camila didn't even feel like seeing other girls. She doesn't understand what she even saw in them. Lauren was the only girl in her mind.

The girl with the bangs looked over at the pills on her table and made a face. She hasn't been taken them.

She walked over to them and wondered if she should just take them all at once, but she immediately shook her head and walked away.

It was getting late and Camila knew it was time for her to prepare herself and to try to not fall asleep. Otherwise, the nightmares would get to her. She couldn't let that happen.

Camila cursed herself for letting it happen because not even hours later, she was panting and sweating hard on her bedroom floor. She quickly stood up and dashed downstairs and out the door.

Running would shut her mind off. She needed to run, so she did and she didn't even know where she was going. Her mind was shut off and her feet were just having a mind of their own, she didn't control them.

Camila stopped to take a breath, she hunched over and breathed hard with her hands on her knees. When she caught up to her breath, she looked up to see the familiar house.

Her heart hurt, remembering what happened here last time. She walked a bit closer and wondered what her green eyed kitten was doing. She knew that it would be a bad idea to go up there and knock, so she turned around to leave.

"Camila?"

Camila turned around to her name and her heart skipped a beat when she saw her there.

Lauren with an oversized sweater and no pants. She was paler than ever and had huge bags under her eyes. The pale girl seemed smaller than usual, as well. Camila couldn't help but think she still looked beautiful even in her bad moments.

Camila wondered how she, herself, looked. Maybe worse.

"What are you doing?" Lauren broke her thoughts. She didn't get close, in fear of what Camila would do to her. She knew she shouldn't be scared, but Camila was different and she couldn't help but be a little afraid.

"I-I just came to run. What are you doing awake?" Camila asked, trying not to go over there and embrace the small girl. Lauren tilted her head and looked around, shrugging.

"Couldn't sleep." She said.

A few minutes passed with silence. Neither girl said anything.

"How have you been?" Lauren asked to try and break the tension in the air. Camila bit her lip and debated on telling her the truth or not. She decided to lie.

"I've been great actually. I've been sleeping good lately."

Lauren raised an eyebrow. She knew Camila was lying. Camila's physical appearance looked very bad. Plus, if she did get sleep, why was she running out at this time?

"You don't have to lie, y'know." Lauren spoke up softly. Camila didn't say anything so the other girl took this as a chance to keep on.

"I know you haven't been sleeping or eating. Your body and face say it all. I am the same way, but not as bad as you. You need help, Camila. Even though we split up months ago and we've had bad fights. With you hitting me and all, I still care about you. And it pains me to see you like this." Lauren allowed herself to get close and touch Camila's hand.

Her heart dropped when she felt how bony her fingers were. It was not normal.

Camila knew she was right, and she did know she needed help. But she needed Lauren first. She needed Lauren with her.

When she felt her soft touch, she relaxed and felt the tingling going to her spine.

"I can not live without you, Lauren." Camila squeezed Lauren's hand.

The green eyed girl took in a shaky breath. The words gave her butterflies in her stomach. She didn't know if this was Camila's way of trying to confess.

"Camila....you need to get better. All those drugs and beers are getting you like this. Look at you. You are gorgeous...but not like this, babe." Lauren sighed and looked down once more at Camila's body.

"You are my drug. I need you. Come back, please. I need you." Camila grabbed Lauren's cheeks and looked into her eyes. This was new to her. Well, it wasn't but after the accident it was.

"I-I," Lauren begin to shake her head.

"Please." Camila whispered and Lauren's heart broke. The girl in front of her really did need help.

"Okay." Lauren said gently. She saw Camila's lips curve into a happy smile and she couldn't help but smile back.

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A/N: i tried uploading this yesterday but the italics and bold were not working on my phone, so i am on my laptop right now. Enjoy, thank you.

-M

Oh, wait. Also i feel like you guys had enough of this so i'm bringing Camila back. slowly though. And because you guys have been asking for it.