Dissolved Completely.

Spinning

Some times the world is spinning. I feel like my head is spinning, it feels exhausting. Seeing how perfect your true love's life is, it makes you feel like you aren't good enough.

I am one of those girls who wear a t-shirt with pants that are dark blue or black. I don't wear make-up nor do i dress myself in sexy clothing. I like to read old English and shakespear.

I like basketball, i enjoy throwing around a football. I love my grades. I actually enjoy school.

I'm not the perfect girl. I'm an outsider.

What goes on in my mind is insane. I never make good use of words, my stupidity is high. No matter how much I try to change, i'll never be that one perfect girl every guy wants or that one perfect child every parent dreams of.

I'll always be a pest or a nuisance.

I bet even my own boyfriend who i love and care for is annoyed of me. I know at some point that he will find another more improved girl. Someone who dresses up, wears make-up, someone who is actaully beautiful to him.

But till than i shall wait for him to break my heart and to cause my heart to ache.

I can admit the room spins. I never really understood why. I feel like my entire life is like a machine spinning constantly trying to be stopped but can't be stopped only by itself.
Im falling, yet spinning at tbe same time.

Hi, I am Anjelic and this is a taste of reality that is typed by me.

It all started with a argument.