Dissolved Completely.

Stranger

I kept running, panting softly runnjng down the street as i felt small light water drops come down as the sky was grey. I heard the thunder as i sighed softly so close to home. I saw the shade of a light blue house knowing i was almost home, i reached the gated house as i jogged up seeing my mother and father's vehicles parked in front of the garage.

I calmed my breathing as i walked up to the door after passing the opening of the gate. I slowly approached the door, before i could open it the door flew opened as it was my mother who had a depressed look on her face.

"Anjelic where in the hell were you?" She said as she grabbed the center of my shirt and pulled me in the house closing the door hard with anger. She released me with slight violence as she let go of my shirt she pushed me away. "Im sorry...i ju-" she slapped me as my face went to the side feeling the soft pain of my cheek being slapped, i turned back at her.

"Im sorry...i wanted to get away from the-" my mother cut off my apology and explanation. "Shut up and go to your room now. Angel was never a disappointment like you." She said coldly.

I looked at my mother with hurt, she never treated me like this, she stopped when i was 8. "Get out of my face now." She demanded looking away from me, i ran up to my room as i shut my door. I felt my breathing steady as i felt my tears run down my cheeks as i sniffled, i felt weak and broken but why is this changing. Wheres my dad? Why is my mother acting like this again?

I wanted to leave. I want to get out. But i couldnt act like a whimp, it was only once since she did that. Tomorrow will be fine i think.

I cried that entire night, cried myself to sleep as i looked at my phone a few texts from Aidan asking if i was okay, none from the other.

I curled up in my bed sighing softly as i cried quietly, i looked at my phone as i decided to grow some balls and text Jadon. I waited nothing, about 2 hours later nothing. 

I gave up and sighed. I cried, i couldn't bring Aidan into this after what happened.

I missed Angel, i miss her why was i so annoyed with her? I wish i could do things differently and redo the last moment i had with her. I wish i didnt leave and walk off, i wish i could've said i loved her and thanked her for walking me through my life.

I broke down, i lied to Aidan telling him i was tired, i wanted to be alone and cry.

He said goodnight and i said the same thing. 

Next morning, i heard my door slam open as my mom shook me awake, "huh?" I said opening my eyes slowly as i saw my mother, she had smeared eye liner om her eye as she also had smeared make up basically she reaked of wine and cigarettes.

"Get your ass up, you have school." She said, i sighed getting up feeling my eyes swollen from crying i nodded as she left. I grabbed my clothes and went to the shower. I finished showering as i changed into my clothes, i looked into the mirror feeling miserable. I brushed my hair after drying jt put on my shoes and grabbed my bag and jacket. I stuffed my phone in my pocket as i walked out, leaving my room and the house.

I felt the coldness outside as i shivered putting on my jacket. I walked to school as i was close i saw Jadon than Aidan. When i saw Jadon all i thought was 'always be there for you, psh bullshit.' I walked passed Jadon, no reaction. I walked passed Aidan and he turned to me and asked me again if i was okay.

Why the fuck did i want to be Jadon? Bullshit is all he told.

People felt strange. My mother felt like a stranger, my so called friends wete stranger.
Most of all why the hell did i ruin what i had with Aidan.

Everyone acted like strangers towards me, even someone i trusted. Thought they be there for me like they said but fuck no.

It was only Aidan who didn't feel like a stranger.