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Face it alone

Things don't happen when the person you need is around but when the person you need leaves.

Things begin to happen. Things that make you wanna yell and scream. Things that make a mess of you along with crying and not being able to have someone by your side.

You have to face it alone.

But deep down inside you can't face it alone, you want someone to be able to say 'it'll be okay' or 'Don't cry.'

Instead your left alone crying. Left alone to deal with the hurt you have been feeling. Left alone with no reason to stay strong anymore. Why can't the world just stop making me miserable?

Face it alone, that's all i've been doing. Trying to smile through the pain isn't enough at all. You'd rather scream and cry for help but knowing the person who is able to help is happy and you don't want to bring them down with you. You take the pain and suck it up.

Even if you have to face it alone.

I face it alone at times but only because i don't want to be weak. I want to tell someone but knowing if i did, i would instantly break down in a second.

But than i get pulled out of my pain by a person.

Aidan always managed to take my mind off things. As known to him i should just relax but i never could until he showed up. He would hold me and i don't know just like that i'd feel instantly coomfortable.

Even in the darkest times Aidan has been able to pull me into comfort. Make me feel as if im not alone as i thought i was.

Even if i was alone, i wouldn't be facing it alone. Id be with Aidan. He'd be right there beside.

I know i may take him for granted but we both had issues. Some you may not understand.

But face it alone. I don't know.