Dissolved Completely.

I want you back.

I walked inside. I didn't bother to call Aidan back, to apologize. I know, im a asshole but how could i when i wanted to be with someone else.

I looked at the "present" he gave me. Yes, today was my birthday. I finally turned 17,

October 19th, 2001.

I unwrapped which wasnt trouble, it was a little black box which seem it was for earrings or a necklace. And it was. Necklace, a trutle necklace.

I hate myself so much. I took off my bag and set it on the floor, i toom my phone out and decided to call Aidan.

I took a deep breath, i pressed his contact name and pressed the call symbol. It rang 3 times. After the third ring i know he wasmt gonna pick up.

"I'm sorry the caller you are trying to reach is not available at the moment, please leave a message at the beep." I hung up.

I looked at the neck the turtle's shell was like a weird stone. It was green. The rest of the body was gold. I turned over the turtle and i started to cry again.

On the back of the turtled was engraved,

                     Anjelic-Beautiful

I really hate myself so much.  I sighed crying a bit, what was i thinking? I laid down and closed my eyes holding the necklace. Soon I fell asleep, while crying.

"Forever and ever baby?" Said Aidan. His arm wrapped around me as we laid in my bed. "I never wanna lose you...you know that right?" He said to me, I never smiled so much. "I don't either..." I held his hand. "I'll always love you..." He said before kissing me.

I woke up. I looked at the time on my phone. 6:15am. I groaned a bit, i saw messages from Tezhaun.

I sighed softly. Still feeling down i changed into some new clothes after showering.
I grabbed my phone and texted Tezhaun back. Even after everything, Angel always asked why i never wanted to date Tezhaun.

The reason she said this would be because of hos Tezhaun and i acted. He knew me ever since i was 6. He helped me through my stages of depression and anxiety.
At a point of my life i was suicidal.

So yeah he helped me alot, he was there with my heart breaks arguments with my mother. Lets just say he knows the shit i gone through but so did Aidan. He knew i was fucked up.

He knew my past but he still managed to handel me. He loved me and cared about me. He showed it, even when i told him to leave after everythung he didn't. He stayed and dealt with me.

I sighed and walked out my house. I didnt even bother to tell my mom. I was done, done with her crap, her stupid excuse to treat me however she wants just because im her daughter.

I didnt know if i wanted to go to school or to do anything at all.
I walked to the park. The park was the ome place Aidan and I loved doing. I miss it. So damn much.

I felt like my life shattered.
Than I saw Aidan. He was with that girl. 
I missed him and he moved on. How is this real? I wanted him back. 

I took a deep breath and walked up to Aidan and that girl.  "Aidan." I said in a nori.mal tone, Im not sure if he was ignoring me or didnt hear me. Than I walked in front of him, "Aidan." I said again he looked at me, he was laughing with her but when he saw me he immediately went from a smile to a mad yet sad look.

I want him back but yet I'm not want he wants or needs.