I hate myself the most.

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I sighed deeply, i felt my blood boiling as i got up and walked off. Many thoughts were going through my mind. God i felt so fucking mad.

Seeing that person made me wanna fucking snap at them. For hell i didnt even wanna look at them at all.

"Hey!" The hollared at me. I ignored it walking off, i guess they caught up to me and grabbed my arm. "What the fuck do you want snake?" I said pushing them hard. They blinked and to me it looked as if they were looking for the right words to speak. "Bye you fucking hypocrite."

I left. I didnt fucking wanna see this damn person. Great now my blood is boiling inside and im pissed off.

I walked back. I didn't even know where i wanted to go. I didnt have anyone to go to anymore, why does this bullshit always have to be so damn complicated.

Just remembering that person, makes me so freaking mad. Why the fuck now? What the hell did i do to deserve to fucking see this person?
I reached my house. I looked at it and seeing it really pissed me off again. I feel like fucking screaming, i wanna scream at the damn world.

To even know that- "Angelic?" A voice cut me off from my thoughts. I turned around and it was Aidan. "What? What is it?" I asked trying to calm myself as i looked up at him. "You okay?" He asked go those damn words. Those damn words i always hear. "Yeah i am." I replied hoping he just go away.

"Anjelic...i've known you for more than a year..tell me please" he said.  I sighed, "Look somethings are just difficult to talk about to your ex. If you catch what I'm saying."

Aidan looked down as if the words i spoken hurt him. "You can still talk to me...im here." He replied again, "Aidan just go away, is that so hard for you? Just go, leave me the hell alone." I said stupidly.

I regretted it after i saw his expression, i sighed deeply. He just looked at me, god when he did my heart broke even more. "Okay....if thats what you want..." he said and looked me with his sad expression. I sighed deeply. Before he walked off he handed me something, "Here...happy 17th birthday...." he said and walked off.

Right there, i wanted to cry. I wanted to hug him, i wanted him back. My breath was shaky and me watching him walk away. I wanted to call him back. But i couldnt.

I was crying, i didnt even notice until i felt it drip from my upper lip.
"Aidan..." my voice sounded dry like i was sick or something.

I hate myself so much.

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