Invisible Ink

Still I Stand

I watch in grief as memories flood by

I lay in bed praying that sleep would take me

I stare in pain as my childhood flashed within me

I was full of hope and dreams

What would past me think of me?

She would cry

I'm like a broken toy

Unable to please girls or boys

I can't keep up with this world

But I can't stay in place either

I feel like I don't belong here

A void in my heart tells me I am lonely

Yet around others, I am avoided or overlooked

So here I stand

Feebly before others

Their faces and feelings unknown to me

Again I feel alone

I wail as my regrets push past my joy

Reminding me of hardships I can't move past

The pain of others tears at me

I can't save them

Nor do my words bring comfort

In the end here I stand

In the middle of the chaos and pain of my own brain

Still, I stand here reaching out my hand

To those around me pleading them to give me a chance

Still, I cry for every person I see die inside

Still, He stands arms open wide