Avengers Imagines

Steve/Bucky X Reader

Authors note at end

You lay on your bed with your back to the door and your head off your pillow as silent tears trailed down until they rested on your sheet. Well you tried to be as quiet as you could anyway. After all, bawling your eyes out at one in the morning isn't exactly the quietest. The problem is that you don't deal with things emotionally as they come, instead they pile up until you finally break and cant take it anymore. Unfortunately for you, and your stuffed dinosaur you were squeezing, you had hit the breaking point.

The soft creak of your door make your breath catch in your throat, and it stayed there until the voice of your uncle spoke.

"(F/n)? You alright?" Bucky asked from behind you at the doorway.

You swallowed hard before answering. "Yeah. I'm fine." It came out softly but you were impressed by the fact your voice didnt falter.

"Really? Because I don't know that I classify crying at One A.M. being okay." The door creaked again but he hadn't left. "What's wrong?"

You didnt answer, didnt even roll over to look at him. Not at first anyway. "I'm just." You hesitated. What were you? Infuriated, heartbroken, depressed, and confused were just a few of the feelings coursing through you. "Frustrated I guess." You sighed and rolled onto your back as he sat on the edge of your bed.

"What could you possibly be so frustrated about?" He asked and you knew that his brows would be furrowed together, much like your fathers do when he is confused, but you could only make out his form in the dark room.

"What isn't there to be frustrated about?" You grumbled as you rubbed a hand over your face. "You wouldn't understand though. You went through different things when you grew up. A lot different." Your voice was so quiet you weren't even sure he would hear you, but you should have known he would.

"It was different from what you go through now, but in a way a few things remain the same." His hand rested reassuringly on your knee. "But just because it's different doesnt mean that it isn't a big deal to you."

His voice was equally as soft and you felt that knot in the back of your throat get bigger again. "A lot of people don't understand that." You mumbled and sniffed. You chewed your lip a moment before finally opening up.

"Its just that I've been dealing with a lot of shit up at work and it's getting annoying. I'm tired of being the youngest one there but also the only responsible it seems." Your voice already started to catch as you began to speak these demons out loud and you cursed yourself for not being stronger. "I literally have one friend outside of family and she never wants to actually go somewhere or do anything. My other friend is just a freaking whore and I always have to hear about her problems. Doesnt matter what I'm facing." You sucked in a ragged breath as you wiped away fresh tears.

"Not only am I 21 and living at my Dad's house, I'm 21 and still single. Never even had a serious relationship." Your voice raised at the end in frustration. "And its even worse because according to society not only should I practically be engaged by now, I'm being told I'm fat!" You were starting to speak faster, almost afraid you wouldn't get it all out before you broke down in ugly sobs. "I mean sure I might be a little chubby but it's all i can do to work it off. You've seen me work out, you know I try."

You took a moment to suck in two breaths before continuing. "I'm tired of always having to do what other people want me to do. I mean, God forbid I take a day for myself. Suddenly I'm antisocial and being a prissy bitch." The last two words came out bitterly and with air quotes. You were sitting up in bed now facing your uncle while in near hysterics.

"And to top it off, instead if buying the new phone, which I need seeing as mine hardly works right now, I went and bought more parts for my jeep that I didnt even need." You buried your head in your hands as you tried your best to hold the rest in.