"Idiot, do you really need to watch this show one more time? You watched that episode yesterday"
"Idiot, get off the couch already, you need to get some air. No wonder you're depressed all the time if you keep shut in"
"Idiot, get off of your damn computer, don't tell me you're doing something illegal again. You told me you are done with Gangsters"
"Idiot, stop annoying those people. No wonder everybody hates you"
"Donghyuck? Come on I didn't mean it. Ugh, would you stop guilt tripping me like that! Why did I ever think I could live with a idiot like you!?"
"You are just doing that to get my attention aren't you, bastard?"
"Donghyuck?...It's okay, don't cry, I'm here…yes you fucking are, those are tears, I see them. You shouldn't be ashamed of crying, it's fucking human. Alright, alright, I'll leave, geesh"
"Its okay, it's okay. I won't yell anymore, Donghyuck, I'm sorry. It's okay"
"No, Donghyuck, we are not ordering dumpling, again…Shut up you annoying little bastard, we had it yesterday, I'm sick of it already. Don't you fucking dare- DONGHYUCK GIVE ME THE PHONE NOW!"
It has been two weeks since Donghyuck moved in and Mark was pretty much losing his mind. Be it the constant mood swings, continuous watching and rewatching of same kdrama, his obsession with dumpling, his playing of confusing games that Mark couldn't even begin to grasp or any other of the utterly annoying habits the younger male displayed, Mark was at the end of his wits with the brunette.
The only reason he hasn't kicked him out yet was because he considered himself a man of his word and was going to save Donghyuck no matter what. And he was stupidly stubborn and couldn't be proven a point.
In last two weeks, Donghyuck unpredictably shifted from the annoying bastard he knew so well to the sad being waiting for his execution. It was frustrating and irritating as hell.
Mark sometimes, when Donghyuck was in one of his down moods, stared at him, trying to see the lie that must have been there.
He knew that he was not supposed to think like that, that he was supposed to be kind and supportive and all that shit, but his instinct clearly told him to be careful around Donghyuck.
It might have all been a set up. It might have all been just another game for Donghyuck. His rational mind did not believe it, saw how lost and lonely did the younger man look when he would stare at the wall vacantly.
But he was still careful, careful not to get a knife in the back for being too nice. Careful of the traitorous brunette.
After all, if Donghyuck was being all honest now, no matter how impossible and ridicules that seemed, he would have to face him. Face him and those words. Those terrifying words that slipped the younger's mouth.
"I love you Lee Minhyung"
Damn that bastard.
Mark didn't know how to handle a situation like that. He never expected Donghyuck to love him. Never expected him too feel anything else but hatred.
The older didn't know how to respond. He refused Donghyuck's feelings in the cruelest way possible the second they were out in the open.
He regretted that, he saw how the younger was hurt by that. He should of cushioned the blow, be a little nicer, a little more considerate of the other's feelings.
But he and Donghyuck were enemies. It would be stupid to think he would react any other way. What was Donghyuck thinking, dragging him into a mess like this?
Couldn't he just fall in love with someone whose life he didn't ruin? Then again that list must be incredibly short.
Mark never considered dating a guy. He was pretty sure he was straight. Sure he managed to blow up every single relationship he was in until now, but that was because his short temper scared most of the girls away.
He always hoped that he will find someone strong and compassionate who will stick with him through his struggle. That was the girl he dreamed off. Someone who was mentally stronger than him and could hold him back from his destructive ways.
That someone could not be Donghyuck.
No matter how much the younger one resembled a girl.
No matter how much he seemed to be the only person who was not afraid to stick around Mark when he was angry.
No matter how he always teased him and pissed him off, seen his most dangerous and wild side and always came back for more.
No matter how he would never leave.
Never leave Mark all alone…
No. Mark refused to believe it. He could not. Will not fall in love with his mortal enemy.
Donghyuck was annoying and sadistic. He played with people's feelings and was pretty much the most uncompassionate person in the world.
He was egoistic and selfish and only ever thought of himself. Manipulative and snarky and scheming and outright everything Mark ever thought was evil and wrong.
What was Donghyuck thinking?
It was impossible to know.
He could not return the love Donghyuck claimed he had for him.
And he never will.
Donghyuck and him were just too different. Like dark and light. Even though Mark would blow up easily, he always had best intentions in mind and hated violence. Donghyuck, it seemed, only wanted destruction for his own sick entertainment.
But then again, these last weeks told him that even that Donghyuck, Donghyuck he hated so much, might have been a disguise.
A way to protect the real Donghyuck, whoever real Donghyuck was.
But that didn't erase everything the younger did. Nothing can erase that. Nothing can make Mark look over all the wrongs committed.
Donghyuck had his choice, he could have been a better person. Maybe then their relationship could have been possible, even though Mark honestly doubt it.
Mark could never love someone so violent.
