fix it, felix

felix's favour

He did scold me as he pulled me inside. "You are out of your mind, Kat. That shit's really dangerous. I don't know what I would do if you get hurt because of me. Next time, please, please don't do that again. You're giving me a heart attack."

"You should probably stop hiding from me when we have misunderstandings..." I told him, as he went into the kitchen. He comes back with tea. He then went to sit in front of me, and he radiates an aura that a person has when he wants to talk about something kinda serious.

"Are you calm yet?" he asks, watching my face as I sipped tea. It's hot, quite tangy. It has a floral sweetness and aroma, and I know right then it's chamomile. His parents' favourite. He ran his fingers through his hair and sighed.

"Mhm..." I hummed. "Where's Olivia? Rachel?"

"Oh, they're at the mall. With mom and dad. They'll be back in about two hours...shopping for clothes." he says, drumming his fingers against the table and nibbling on his lower lip. It's so quiet that I had to push myself to talk because it's awkward as hell. I am so not used to this scenario.

"Hm? Why didn't you go with them? Your clothes suddenly enough for you?" I asked him, trying to crack a joke, to make the atmosphere less awkward.

It was kinda helpful, because he laughed. "No. I really planned to talk to you today, that's why I'm left here." He stopped laughing, but his smile was there.

"What did you want to talk about? Is that what you're going to tell me earlier? When you called while I was sprawled outside your veranda?" I bowed my head, remembering the scenario earlier. We're close, but what I did was really embarrassing, climbing up his terrace and surprising him and almost giving him a heart attack. Sheesh.

"No, no. I called you earlier because I wanted to make you come here...I talked to Minho hyung. We met earlier."

That made me whip my head back up at him. He is looking straight at me, "We...talked," he repeated.

I nodded, then finished my tea. "Well, what happened?"

He fiddled with his fingers, and laid his eyes on his hands. "Um...I--he told me that...that he feels bad...and that he knows there's nothing between us. And that I'm trying to get you away from him when all he wanted was to say sorry and fix your relationship."

I nodded once again, urging him to go on. He looked at me and continued speaking. "I was really surprised, because as you know, we aren't really close since I came back here in Korea three years ago, right? But I do remember he's really shy and has always held himself back from saying things running through his mind...you also know that, right? I don't know, I guess time really changes people. Because this time, he didn't hesitate to tell me he'll get you back. Anything it takes, he told me," he bowed again, and I can't help but think, oh, Felix really is a little kid.

But then, because of the words he told me, my heart suddenly beat faster I had to take deep breaths.

"He did apologize to you, right? That day at Ho Ho Myoll?" he asked.

Oh, right. That day. "Yeah, he did." I remember. Felix saw that.

"And that day when we were at Chan hyung's?" he asked hesitantly. I nodded, remembering the way Minho looks and how he lost weight and his eyes, pleading, his hands, holding on to mine.

"When I saw you with him, I was controlling myself because to be honest? I really want to punch Minho hyung. He has the nerve to suddenly come back when you're now doing so well, noona..." he looked back at me again, his eyebrows furrowed.

"Ya, thou shalt not get physical. That's bad. He's still your hyung, and a friend. Even if you're doing it because you care about me, thank you, but I can't let you do that. Not because I'm still into Minho, but because I can't let you do something terrible." I tell him. "You can always talk to him calmly. Like what you told me you just did earlier minus the 'threatening-Minho part'. You'll understand each other better if you do it that way--"

He cut me off. "I thought, just because Minho hyung apologized, you'd give in that easily? Even if I know you won't do it, that thought really made my blood boil, Kittykatz. If you ask me, then, no, I would never let you get back together with that drongo who hurt you, even if he tries to convince me he'd fix everything."

He took a deep breath, closing his eyes and bowing his head. "I'm sorry if I'm like this, Kittykatz, it's just that I can't let myself just stand there and let you be played around, you know? You're really important to me."

Felix has really matured, but there's still this stubbornness in him. Nevertheless he has grown so wonderfully as a person. He always looks out for his hyungs, and his sisters, and me. He's so sweet and I really love that about him.

I smiled at him. "Thank you, Felix. You're always looking out for me."

He stood up and went beside me, and then he grabbed my hands.

"Please do me a favour, noona..." I noticed that when he's really, really serious about something, he really calls me noona. It's cute, but it makes me nervous sometimes.

There are only two scenarios when he calls me noona. First is when he likes to tease me. Second, is when he's really serious about telling me something.

"Don't let him mess with your feelings again. Alright?" I nodded.

He cupped my face and stared into my eyes intently. This close, I can see his freckles very clearly, I'm happy he didn't apply anything today. "I made a promise to fix your heart, geuchi? I'm trying to do it...so please, Kittykatz, do this favour. For me. For you."