fix it, felix

fall

"It's his favourite season," Chris sighs as he stirred his cup of coffee. I sip into mine, as I watched the clouds above us. Changbin and Hyunjin are quietly conversing, Jisung's eating his cheesecake, as usual, with Minho trying to get a piece of it. "Get your own!" I hear Jisung tell him. Woojin, Seungmin and Jeongin are staring at Chris' laptop screen, sitting at the top of the table. It's ringing. Ugh, I hate that sound. The hell are they watching.

"I know, right," I murmur. Last autumn, I remember we were always spending it together, apple picking, long drives, we even rented a cabin at the mountains beside a stream where we fished so that we could have something to eat--well, we only got like three fishes and the potatoes we brought are not enough, so Woojin and Chan ended up waiting for the pizza delivery guy near the road because they ordered large boxes of pizza, some fries and bottles of drinks for our dinner.

Minho called for a waiter, "Um, I also want a cheesecake, Jeongin, what did you want again?"

"Toast and butter hyung!" Jeongin says. "Oh, and vegemite...." he adds. "Do they have that?"

"Do you have that?" Minho asks the waiter. The waiter nods. "That one too, please. Thanks." The waiter walks away and Minho faced him, "Vegemite? Really?" he asks Jeongin.

"Is it on, hyung?" Jisung asks Woojin, gesturing towards the laptop. He shakes his head. "Til now?" Woojin nods.

"Because Felix hyung likes toast with vegemite," Jeongin says. The mere mention of his name pinched my heart. Hyunjin pointed at the horizon, the sun slowly creeping up the sky, emanating an orange-pink light as the sky turns into the lightest shade of blue, it's almost white, the colour from the sun mixing with the sky. It's beautiful.

"We better take a picture of the sunrise. Oh, if only Felix could see this," Hyunjin says, smiling.

Stop.

"Yeah, he'd be your buddy to take pictures here and there," Binnie sighed, looking up at the clear sky. There are birds flying, forming a V, and there was an airplane coming from the north. "Remember when we had breakfast at Tavolo?"

Chan groans. "I do remember that, and I do remember how light my wallet has become, I also do remember how empty my bank account was--"

"As empty as your soul, Felix says," Minho tells him nonchalantly, as he slices into his cheesecake and now, Jisung's the one begging for some.

Oh, damn. Stop reminiscing--"Ah, jinjja, this is going to be a never ending chain!" he complained, but feeds Jisung nevertheless.

"I remember when Felix used to steal all my cheesestick," Jisung says, as he chewed. His cheeks are so cute. "Sometimes he'd steal my sausage, too, but I'd give it to him because he really loves that."

The laptop suddenly dinged, which made us look at it. "Invitation accepted--but suddenly turned into...ugh..." Chan says, making the laptop face him.

"Ah, that's better. What should I do now? It's busy..." he says loudly, almost shouting at his laptop. We can hear a low female voice from the laptop, along with the sound of papers being flipped, and the sound of a pair of hands pressing the keyboard. Chris adjusted the laptop so that we can all see what's playing in it.

"Kat," Chris says. He's sitted across from me, so he's staring back at me. I suddenly felt my chest tighten when I saw his face, what the fuck. It's that time again. He's looking at me with a straight face, which I only see when he's really serious, when he's not in the mood--oh damn. I'm kinda scared with his expression.

Here he goes again, damn you Chris. I'm going to punch his face for making me blush--

Seungmin shifted from his seat and laid his back on Jeongin, eating a piece of toast. "Hm, I like where this is going." Jeongin wrapped his arm around Seungmin's shoulder as he watched as well. When I looked at Chris, shit, he's still looking at me like that!

"I know right, I hope this will be better than last week's show..." Jisung comments, drinking from his berry smoothie.

"But I liked that show!" Hyunjin pouts, "It was so much better because someone almost flew ho--"

"Kat!" I jolted when I heard Chris call my name. "Don't look at them when I am talking to you," he says in a heavy Australian accent.

"H-how? How can I look at them when all my eyes ever want to see is you?" I answer back, leaning forward. He took my hands. "Why won't you just trust in me, Chris?"

He then sighed, bowing his head. Then, he looked back up at me as he's still holding my hand.

"I-I'm...I'm falling for you, Kat," Chris says, loudly and clearly, for everyone to hear.

I took a deep breath. "Ch-chris--I..." I stutter loudly, "I'm falling for you, too. I love you--"

"What the...?!" a deep voice with a thick Australian accent is heard from the laptop. Then, we heard a 'I'm sorry, but I have to cancel that meeting,' 'But Mr. Lee--' 'This conversation is done. You may leave. Thank you."

Our table bursted in laughter as Felix, wearing a suit and tie, emerged and appeared on screen, which was facing the wall earlier. He looks upset, and even on cam, I bet he's eyeing our hands. Chris is laughing so hard, the losing-oxgen type of laugh, so Woojin has to help calm him down as I let go of his hand. "I knew it! Better than last week's show!" Jisung exclaims happily. "Damn, I got a lil carried away."

"Wow. How dare you confess your love for each other while I can hear both of you very clearly in here," Felix says, "What now Kat? I thought you'd wait for me? Two weeks is all that's left--"

"Chill, Felix. It's just that you're so hard to contact so we had to trigger you! It's lucky if we ever get to contact you once a week, like today! If I haven't let my inner actress out, you wouldn't be popping out of nowhere in this video call!" I say, my arms crossed.

"Look I'm sorry okay? It's just really busy in this company. That's why they have to send me back here in Australia, that's also the reason why we have to come back and check on things. And when I say busy, I mean really really busy," he says, as he started to fix the papers in front of him. A door opens and a man's voice is speaking to him.

Changbin snorted, "Did you know how much they were acting like you're dead or something? Seriously, I don't know what to feel about that."

"How could you, guys..." Felix says, a slight smile etched on his face as he's scribbling something on paper. "I'll be home in two weeks, don't go living like I'm gone forever."

"But you have to promise you'd answer our calls when we call you, okay? Look at us, we're all busy with something these past few weeks but we still find time to get together and make you answer our calls!" I say. "I already stopped bugging you every hour of the day just for a message so you better give us some time!"

He chuckled, then looked at us all. He looks so professional and formal, it seemed as if working has matured him. But of course, there's still this little kid Felix inside of him at times, especially when all of us talk to him. "Of course. That's why I can't wait to go back home and tease Binnie hyung, annoy the hell out of Chan hyung, take lots of pictures and play videogames with the maknaes, eat chicken with Woojin hyung and act all silly with Minho hyung and Jisung."

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