Dance Of Night (A Diabolik Lovers Fanfiction)

Chapter 24 Confessions

"Subaru and Ayame, you go first," instructed Shu, referring to our farewells. "I will say goodbye to Edgar in the meantime."

I was relieved by this. I had no idea of how I was going to say goodbye to Subaru, but it even scared me to say goodbye forever to Shu. It pained me.

"Wait," said Subaru, as I was already turning to leave to the portal. I wanted to say goodbye in private, and the demon realm was the best choice for a place. "I wish to say goodbye to Edgar as well..." he blushed slightly.

"Of course," I smiled at him. "Take your time. And Edgar," I called to the human boy, "see you next month."

"See you next month, Ayame!" he cheered.

That was one of the things I liked most about Edgar, how he was always so energetic and cheery and making people smile. I stayed close waiting for Subaru, as he went to meet Edgar, and Shu came next to me while he waited for Edgar. We were both looking at them when Shu spoke to me, still looking straight ahead.

"After Subaru leaves when you have finished saying your goodbyes, wait for me by the portal, please," he whispered to me.

I turned to him, pained that he would ever think I would leave without bidding him farewell, that he felt he needed to explain this to me.

"Alright," I whispered, clearly saddened.

By that time, Subaru was already in front of Edgar and struggling to find words.

"Well, Subaru, what did you want to tell me?" teased Edgar.

"Tsk- Do not be so conceited. I just wanted to tell you to take care of Ayame. If you do not I will most certainly find you and make you suffer," said Subaru looking at the side through clenched teeth.

"I like you too, Subaru," grinned Edgar. "It was fun. I hope we can see each other again."

"Tsk- Whatever," said Subaru, turning to leave already. He then stopped in his tracks and turned his head to the side. "Thank you," he muttered, blushing deeply, and continued walking right to me.

Subaru was still blushing by the time he reached me, giving his back to a beaming Edgar. The silver haired Sakamaki then grabbed me by the hand opposite from the side in which Shu stood next to me and began to pull me away in the direction of the portal. I abided, but as I was leaving I felt something brushing my other empty hand, electricity running through my whole arm. I was already a few metres away when I turned around, and only for a few moments I was able to see Shu, staring at one of his hands with such a concerned look that I almost turned around and ran to him. Almost.

Somehow I let the image slip my mind for the moment, as I had to concentrate on Subaru and on saying goodbye to him properly. As soon as we crossed the portal into the demon realm, he turned to face me, letting go of my hand.

"I do not like this," I told him, looking to the side.

He grabbed my face with both of his hands, very gently, and turned it so that my eyes were right on his.

"I do not either," he told me, softly. "But it has to be done, Ayame. Just in case."

"Alright," I said, and then bit my lip, not even knowing how to begin.

"I know," he told me, "I will go first," said Subaru, letting go of my face, resting both his arms by his side. "In case I never see you again, I wish to tell you thank you, for everything you have done for me."

"What have I done?" I asked him, not knowing what he meant.

"You saved me, Ayame," Subaru admitted. "You saved me from myself. I was living in such a miserable state before you came along. I was always blaming myself for what happened to Mother, and I was so lonely. My own guilt was consuming me. But you taught me a lot of things. You taught me about kindness, and patience, and how I should not put everything on my shoulders. You taught me how to breathe, even when I do not really need air. Thanks to you, I could finally relax, and actually enjoy myself. Every night we spent together in the flower path, I cherished them greatly, and I will do so forever. Never again will I succumb to the sadness that used to engulf me as long as our Yucca flower keeps on blooming," he told me. "What is more, I am now friends with both Edgar and Shu. I never thought I would be able to connect with my brother that way. And it was all because of you. I now know that even if you will not be here these next few months, I will not be alone. I am hopeful, Ayame. You gave me hope," concluded Subaru.