Dance Of Night (A Diabolik Lovers Fanfiction)

Chapter 29 Another Piece of Mind

Subaru's POV

I already knew she would never love me like I loved her... But why had I been so hopeful?

On that night we said goodbye to her, Shu came to see me.

"Subaru, we must talk," he said, and upon looking at him, I knew he was trying to look emotionless, but his eyes had this exited sparkle I had never seen before.

Only one girl would cause his eyes to sparkle that way. I was not a fool regarding the situation, but it still came by as a surprise somehow.

"She chose you," I whispered, with my eyes wide.

"She did," he replied, trying to contain his smile for my sake, but failing miserably.

I had known I had no chance with her... I did not deserve her... So why did my chest feel so tight in that moment? Why was I so desolate? Why had I had any hope? Had my confession given me some sort of home?

I told Shu I would support them and left to my room, not wanting to hear anymore about it. I spent the rest of the night in my room, laying on my bed and staring at the Yucca flower, which bloomed fiercely, wondering why I was not angered but... sad. Just sad.

The moth passed by quietly, and I did not want the next ball to ever come, since it meant Ayame would be leaving. I found it ironic how even though she was not going to choose me I still wanted her to stay. It was such a masochistic thought.

But even though I willed with all my heart, the date came upon us. All of us Sakamaki brothers were at our monthly dinner the night before that terribly silent. I knew we were all thinking about how Ayame would become that man's bride on the next day. It angered me that they all thought about her like they actually knew her, but only Edgar, Shu and I really did.

"Tsk- stop it. All of you," I muttered.

"Whatever are you talking about?" asked Reiji, fixing his glasses, while only Laito and Kanato had registered what I had said and looked at me.

"Stop thinking about it," I repeated. "You know nothing."

"Maybe if you would tell us," Laito said seriously, which was quite out of character for him.

I realized then that Shu had caught up with the conversation and was eyeing me carefully, as if I might actually tell. I knew he felt like he could not trust our brothers, but I thought he actually trusted me. What a delusion.

Angered, I rose up from my chair and left my uneaten food and everyone and left the mansion, spending the rest of the night next to the Orange Calla Lilies, awaiting the dreadful hour in which she would be taken away from me.

Kanato's POV

I know everything there is to know about the doll... Whatever did Subaru mean, Teddy? We have been studying her thoroughly these last years. We already have her height, her weight, a lock of her hair we stole that night... We know everything...

Ne, Teddy, what do you think about tonight? I like it that I will have more time with Ayame once she moves into the house, but it is most likely that Father will not let us see her. And even if he does, I only want her as the Mommy if I can be the Daddy, not if I am the child...

Maybe we should steal her away after the ball. Maybe I could grab her and take her far away so that only I can play with the doll forever. After all, that silly replacement we did with that other woman did not end up looking much like her, and she did not move or talk at all after we were done. Even if she did, I think it would be boring, it would never be as lovely as the real doll. No... I must have the real doll...

Ne, that was a strange conversation, the one we eavesdropped between Subaru and Shu after dinner. Shu apologizing to Subaru is a rare sight, and it is even more so Subaru honestly accepting the apology. What was he apologizing about again? Something about trust and love... I could not really care less, but I do wonder about one thing... What did Shu mean when he said "we are getting married"? I know not of any fiancé of Shu... Maybe they will tell us tonight, about his engagement to some stupid rich woman of another household. He does have to get engaged first, since he is the eldest.

I hope that time never comes for me... Women are such annoying beings. That is why I prefer dolls. But not any doll, I want the Ayame doll.

Ne, Teddy? What do you think about her? Lets steal the doll away. We can play house all day, then.

Alright... Lets play the catch the doll game! After all, all the others are playing fiercely over her already. Lets begin to play seriously for once, then. I want the prize.

It is decided then.

Now, we must go. The ball started already and we do not want to miss her entrance. The new staircase was built just for that moment, and the dress should look splendid on her. After all, I did it just for her.

Ayato's POV

How annoying it was that I had to stay in this ball to see through how Ayame became my Father's bride. I refused to assist several times, but Mother forced me to with her... extreme measures. Cordelia sure has a knack for getting us to do whatever she wants, given that the other option involves quite uncomfortable situations for us. She had threatened to throw me into the lake once more...

Either way I discovered, very much to my surprise, that it was all worth it. For when the great doors to the staircase opened and she came to view, I was struck by her beauty. Her dress fit her perfectly, her hair enhanced her features, her eyes, adorned with dark touches around them, entranced me. I would have endured anything to be able to have such a sight before me.

But soon the trance fell into anger, as I knew that Father would take her away from us. And even more so, I was angry at myself, because for that instant, for that moment, I only wanted her for me, ignoring her happiness and what she desired. In that second, I wanted to have her, to love her and to be loved by her at all costs. She looked at me then, our eyes connecting. It took much of me not to give into this feeling and just take her away while she stood atop of the staircase.

As she descended and danced with that man, us Sakamaki brothers dispersed, Shu practically stomping, I noticed. It was more than understandable, seeing how the man was touching her, clearly without her wanting him to do so. It did not last long, since some half hour later we were all called upon once more by Father. Normally, I would not have complied, but given Cordelia's threats I could not resist. In frank honesty, however, I only wanted to catch a glimpse of her again. And I did, and she was a true beauty, and for a moment everything was well. But then Father placed a most horrendous unmovable ring on her right hand, a symbol of how she would be slaved to betroth him.

"Tsk-" I heard me say in that instant, without being able to contain myself. I was so angered at the situation.

She then said she would hand Father her gift to him, and I admit I was quite curious as to what it might be. She was given a case with a violin inside, which I did not know she played, and began to entrance the whole room with the most beautiful piece of music I had ever heard. Glasses began to float around us, surprisingly. In combination with the warm lit room, the glasses looked like jewels, like little raindrops washing troubles away.

I wished that music had been for me. But I saw it. I saw how she had looked expectantly at Shu when she finished playing, and how he looked upon her full of love. It was obvious to me now, she had chosen him. I was confused when I realized, not because of what had happened, but because of this strange sensation that fell upon me, a tightening my chest, a pain so... oppressing.

I only hoped Father had not noticed what I had.