Cinnyris

I Have My Secrets too, Cinnyris

I swear, curse and spit venom in three different language but only in my head. The Alphas greeted me and I, as politely as possible greeted them back.

"Congratulations, Luna. Luke is an excellent friend, I've know him since forever, and apparently, he is a very lucky man for having you. I am really happy for you." Says the Italian Alpha. Arthur, I guess. I smile sweetly.  He looks at me then back at Luke, who's looking at basically everything but me.

He elbows Luke then mouths. 'what did you do?'. I didn't smile sweetly enough then. Or I've smiled way too sweetly. Italians and their handsomeness.

Luke shrugs then twitch nervously. So he knows what's coming at him. I try to drag him out but then another Alpha shows up. He gently takes my hand and kisses it. The French one, I guess. The French and their Romantic methods.

Luke's set of friends are rather interesting. I hope he learned from them well enough. But to use these skills with who? Not me, that's for sure. I am leaving, it doesn't matter, the risks I'm going to take now,. I'm going to go. For whom then? Tiffany? Another girl? A second yet marked mate?

The thoughts make me angry, the envy makes my blood boil, but I just keep smiling. The show must go on.

"Congratulations, Luke." The French darling starts, looking at Luke with a sly smile. "You are such a pretty lady." He purrs at  my direction with his affected accent.

 "Merci beaucoup." I reply with an innocent smile.

"You know how to speak French. Incroyable!" He says. I nod my head then smile shyly. Luke growls and the French guy chuckles.

"Looks like you got yourself a possessive mate. Although he wasn't this possessive with his, oh so many girlfriends. Looks like you're special." He says then leaves.

I glare daggers at Luke then feel myself shiver uncontrollably, my body sways, my eyes shift. I've lost control. With a disturbed breath and a raged spirit, I run outside to the forest trying my best to stop this shivers.  I swallow a large quantity of air, then release it into my hands, and I basically gag myself with my hand then use them as a paper bag. i breath in and out in them constantly, till I'm dizzy.

"his, oh so many girlfriends. "

I am raged. I never dated anyone before, while that Prince Croissant have seen so many Luke girls, that he can't remember a name.

 Luke follows me trotting behind me with ease then tries to touch me but I push his hands away. Although their protection is all I need now.

"You liar! You bastard! We had a deal and you broke it! I hate you. I hate you! I HATE YOU!"  I yell, almost whole heartedly. I walk on but I can't move properly. It's probably because of what I said to Luke, but I deny that undeniable fact and take it out on my dress and shoes, taking the latter off and ripping the sheets of fabrics that 'disturb' me. 

I rush into the place where the ball is again then stand on the stage. some people stare at me, some stare at the dress, some stare at my red face, or my shoeless feet, but at least, theyre all looking In my direction.

"Listen. Everyone listen!" I yell with power. Successfully shutting them up.

I pull a deep breath of oxygen, and release a pure rebel, right out of my guts. It takes guts to do what im doing anyways.

"I refuse my position as you're Luna." I state, my voice faltering and gaining strength. then faltering again.

They all gasp and look at me in horror. I soften my voice when I say. "Please, I have my reasons. I am tii dangerous to be your Luna."  but none of them look convinced. Then there is one way to make them understand. One way

"I'll show you." I say. I can feel my eyes turn into the heart piercing gold and I turn around just in time so it won't harm them. So I won't harm them. The familiar blood curling energy rush through my viens, asking to leave my body, as if my decision would make any difference.I can feel it escape my body in a huge rush. And gold dust charge out of my palms. I slowly feel myself get weaker and feel A piece of my soul bieng forcefully ripped out from my. The gold leaving my palms dies away. Just like me. I crouch on the floor, not because of the pain, but because of the emptiness inside my.

Another shape lost. And another piece of my soul.

I stand up, ignoring the strange, shallow feeling inside. "Do you believe me now. That I'm not good...Enough to be your...Luna." I say, gasping. I look at their wide, terrified eyes and feel more death inside. My hands clutch to the necklace hanging from my neck and I fall on the floor not able to walk. I feel a hand reach out to me. I look up to see Alice sweetly smiling at me. I weakly smile back then more hands reach to me. Venice, Adam , Will. They all care.

They help me up and take me to the cars. Adam lifts me then place me in Alice's car. He sits by me and I rest my head on his lap. "Hey, that thing with the gold dust was awesome, added a little Glimmer to the place." He jokes.  I smile. "Ade, which shape is gone?" I ask. His hand gently slide tge key so that he would see. "The moon is gone." He says. "I feel cold. " I whisper. The shivering situation I was in never stopped. He put his hand on mine then ever so slightly gasp. "Alice, do you have a jacket." He asks. Sounding very worried. "Hey could you check on Scarlet?" He asks me. 'Scarlet.' I call for her but I get no response. ' SCARLET!' I call loudly. 'Cinnyris, It hurts. Amarok is tracking us. She is trying to kill us!'  She howls. 'what should I do! How can I stop her!' I yell. 'Mate!' she says then gets into an uncontrollable fit if of pained howls. Fuck. "Adam get Luke." I say. "What??" He asks, surprised. "Just do it." I yell. The pain hits harder and I whimper. Alice gives Adam this huge furry jacket and he covers me with it. "How come you have this in your car Alice. It is summer!" Adam yells. "Ade is this is the right time for this?" I ask angrily. We make it to the pack house and Adam lifts me out of the car then carries me to my room. I find Lukeleaning at the door, looking all stressed out. I roll my eyes. "Ade put me down." I say weakly. He places me on the bed and tuck me under the covers but the cold  intolerable chills never left my body. 'Scarlet. What now?' I ask her in panick, knowing that we are si close to death. 'Get mate closer, make him stay with us' She shrieks and I roll my eyes. 'Now.' She commands and I realize she is nowhere near kidding.

"Luke." I whisper. He sits by my side then tries to apologize but I don't allow him. He scoots closer and I feel an insurmountable warmth radiating around his body. I hold on to him for dear life. "Cinnyris you're cold." He says, rubbing my hands between his warm ones. "No shit Sherlock." I snort but move closer to him, if that's even possible. "How can you do this, this ammount of warmth?" I ask, starting to lose consciousness. "I have my secrets too, Cinnyris." Are the last words I hear before I slip away into the welcoming darkness.