Cinnyris

My Life's Disaster.

My hand fall limbly out of Lukes as I walk back to the pack house, and they are cold to the point of numbness. Desperation is all I feel. "Cinnyris, it's okay. I can mark you and nothing will happen." Luke says, trying to reassure me.

"No Luke, nothing is going to be okay. Nothing! If you mark me, then I'll explode or something, we are losing anyhow. It's either death or death, or, or... Luke, I am returning to Harry." I say calmly. It sounds right, to go back. Lots of problems will end.

"No! I forbid it!You are not going back to there no matter what. Even if it costs me my life!" He yells, his entire body shaking fiercely.

"Yeah cause your death and the death of who knows how many will make everything better." I state bitterly.

"You should care about your pack. I am not as important as you think, just keep Venice hidden safely with you." I spoke, indifferent. He doesn't see when he's angry, and he is pissed off right now.
"And what do you mean by your ' I forbid it' you sound like a fortune cookie or something. Dude, it's fine, I go back, talk the others in different positions to let me live in peace, out of the dungeon. They'll say yes, I'll be fine, you'll be as spectacular as ever, and voila! Problem solved." I say trying to ease him, though i know everything I've said was a lie. They'll kill me for sure. The frown on Luke's face doesn't budge.

Luke gets on his knees and take my cold hands into his warm ones, the look in his eyes, it is filled with desperation, they are so sad that I pull my head a little higher, not baring to look at them anymore. "Cinnyris, you are all I have, you are all I care about. I love you. I will not be able to live without you. stay with me. You are more important than you'll ever imagine, you are my sweetheart, and this pack's Luna, you are Venice's sister, and Alice's best friend. Baby, I'll keep you safe, I promise. I promise you'll never live in fear again once I'm through with that bastard." Luke states, eyes boring into mine. "But, but, I-" I mutter, not knowing what to say.

"No, you are staying with me." He says, his eyes turning icy silver, painfully stern yet beautiful.

"Okay. But this is not- but. Okay" I say, giving up. He stands up then hugs me tightly, wrapping me with his warm arms and I sink deeper in there, allowing the warmth that radiats out of him to overshadow me, I will not be able to feel it again when I run away. So why not to enjoy it one last time.

After I escape Luke's firm yet gentle grip I walk into my room. I have to leave, because if I didn't, death will engulf my pack. I have to be the better person here. Plus, I'll probably manage to escape one more time, travel to somewhere nice like Morocco and just, vanish. And I will smuggle Venice out somehow and let the girl live in peace.

I take out a paper and a pen, ready to write these last letters people do when they run away but then I hear my door open, and I shiver involuntary. "What are you doing Sea?" Luke askes casually.

"Um, nothing. I was just going to sketch." I say, trying to hide my nervousness. Yes of course sketching is the most reasonable thing to do after what I've just been through. Stupid Cinnyris.

"Oh... Okay but there is something we need to talk about." He says. This never sounds pleasant to me.

He takes my hands into his then smirks. "Since you, my dear Cinnyris, is the most stubborn person I have ever met and I know that when you say something, you mean it-" He starts, that sly smirk still playing on his lips. "-I am going to keep guards around you just to make sure that you won't run away. They're casual precautions, nothing much" He says, shrugging his shoulders playfully.

"N.. I can't stand feeling trapped Luke." I state firmly. Why won't he let me be?

"Yes. And they're just a few guys so relax Sea." He says locking grey eyes with mine. Oh hell no. I have already lost once today. I am not allowing this to happen twice.