I Wouldn't Love You Enough // Harry Styles ✓ [wattys 2020]

21. I dont know you

☆Anna's POV☆

My hand slides over the soft fabric of Harry's t-shirt. I smile to myself.

"Anna! Come down soon." Aura shouts.

I dont respond. I just hug the t-shirt tight to my chest. I pull it back to have a look at it.

Obsession.

Tears well up in my eyes for what seems like the millionth time in past two weeks.

"I really like that t-shirt you know." I compliment as he slips into his 'obsession' t-shirt.

"I like it too."

"Yeah. Its really cool."

"Its perfect when I am with you."

"What?"

"You are my obsession." He says and snuggles next to me on the bed. "I am obsessed with you."

"You sound like a fan."

"I am a huge fan of you Anna. Would you mind giving me an autograph on my cheek?" I giggle.

"You are so cheesy. Arent you?"

I inhale the fragrance of the t-shirt and sigh. The fragrance of his cologne is still present even after 2 weeks. I fold it and keep it back into the closet. I run down the stais to meet with Aura and Ken. I say good morning to Ken and take a bowl of oats and start eating.

"Harry called last night." Aura suddenly says. I spit out the oats.

"Sorry." I wipe my mouth. "What did he say?"

"He is desperate to know why you arent picking up his calls and not coming back home." Aura explains.

"He misses you." Ken interjects.

"What the fuck do you think I do?" I bang my hands on the table. "I miss him so fucking much. But I dont want to hurt him. Do I make myself clear?"

"Anna." Aura clenches her jaw.

"Look I am sorry ok?" I say calmly. "I am just trying to make things better before I die."

"Anna stop saying that." Aura shouts.

"Why not?" I scream back. "Isnt that the truth?"

"You need to calm the fuck down!" Aura breathes heavily.

I push my bowl back and walk away from the dining table. I walk back upstairs to my room. I throw on my sweatpants and sweatshirt and come back down.

"Where do you think you are going?" Aura asks when I meet her on the way.

"Dr. Steve."

She doesnt respond and I walk faster. I get into my car which Harry sent me. I pull the car to the high way and drive my way to Dr. Steve.

"Good morning Dr. Steve." I say as I open the door.

"Oh... hi Anna."

"I dont know what to do."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean." I clear my throat. "I dont want to tell Harry anything. I havent told him yet and I... I just dont know."

He gives me a confused look and I continue.

"Harry Styles is the man I love. I cannot imagine a life without him. It kills me to know that he would be heartbroken to know that I wont be here in 4 months. I dont want to make him feel that way. So I want you to do something."

"And what is that?"

"Will you..." My voice cracks. "Would you mind taking the tests again? Tell me after that if I am seriously dying."

☆Harry's POV☆

And today yet again, I wake up to an empty bed. Its been 2 weeks since Anna has gone. But it feels like 2 years. And for some reason she is not picking up my calls.

After the first two days I tried calling her. Aura picked up. She said Anna wants to stay a few more days. A week later I called again. No one picked up. I called again and Aura picked up again. A few more days.

Sometimes I would just lie hoping she would come back sometime suddenly and surprise me. But she never does. I miss her too much. I do not understand why she doesnt want to talk to me.

I get off the bed and walk to the kitchen. The house has become a mess without Anna. I have become a mess. I was always a mess though. I pour some milk into a glass and gulp it down. I take a look at the clock.

11:37 am.

I pick up my phone and fiddle with it, thinking if I should try calling her again. I decide against it. I go to the bathroom and turn the shower on. I strip myself down and the warm water touches my skin. I tilt my head to let the water drip down my face.

After a good 20 minutes in the shower, I wrap a towel around my waist and walk towards my room. But suddenly I hear the front door slamming against the wall. I turn around to look who just barged into my house. My face lights up as soon I see the familiar face.

Anna.

A smile creeps on to my face but it soon disappears when I see her cheeks wet. She walks furiously towards our room. She grabs a bag and starts stuffing her clothes in it.

"Anna, hey love!" I greet her.

She doesnt respond.

"Why are you crying Anna?"

No response.

"Anna." I calmly say and touch her shoulder. She flinches. I furrow my eyebrows. "Anna what are you doing?"

She grabs more clothes and stuffs them into the tiny bag.

"Anna, talk to me!" I scream. And the words she speaks make my heart shatter into million pieces.

"I dont know who you are!"

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I am gonna be absent for almost about 2 weeks because I am gonna have exams. Sorry this chapter is smol. The next ones shall be large. Have a nice day. xx