I Wouldn't Love You Enough // Harry Styles ✓ [wattys 2020]

9. I never was more sure

☆Anna's POV☆

"I love you"

As soon as the words come out of his mouth I freeze. I love him too. But I cant. I lift my head off his shoulder to look at Niall. He gives me a sympathetical smile with brimming tears and gestures me that he is leaving. The door behind us closes leaving us both to only listen to our breathes. After minutes of silence I build up my voice only to let it break.

"I cant." Tears stroll down my numb flush cheeks and I get off of him. Letting my perfectly fitting puzzle piece go.

"please, love me"

"no no. I cant Harry. Dont make me do this please."

"Why the hell you cant? I have spent so much time thinking about you and our future and how you would love me and hold me tight while laying your head against my chest staring at the bright stars. Why cant you love me as much as I do?"

Those words fumble out of his mouth and each word breaks through my heart, shattering it into millions of pieces. My sobs are louder than ever. I never cried when my dad passed away. I didnt cry so much when my mom too left me. I never cried when I was sent away from Carolina. I am crying as much as I did that night. I cant even make myself look up at him when he comes closer and holds my chin up guiding me to look straight into his eyes.

"Because I cant live Harry. I cant promise you a future. I am going to die Harry. I cant love you as much as you do me..."

Tears fall down his perfect cheeks. His dark circles clearly show that he hasnt slept ever since he left. Is it because of me? He is just infront of me. We both crying. And out of all the things I expected to happen he does the non-existent.

He takes my face into both of his large hands tilts my head upwards closes his eyes and softly touches his lips to mine. The tears are still flowing from both of our eyes. He kisses me deeply but I stand still. Still surprised of the things happening.

How can this happen? Who is this man? Why does he have to be such a miracle? Luke, the man I loved limitless screamed and shouted at me when he came to know that I wouldnt live long. He left me at that particular moment. He said I ruined his life. He said I made him fall too deep. That I ruined everything. That he wouldnt love me if he knew I was going to die. Whereas this man is something incredible. Here he is kissing me when I tell him that I am going to die.

His removes his lips from mine. His eyes completely red, looking straight into mine. My face still in his hands. While I still stand numb.

"Kiss me... please."

At that one command I am ready to surrender myself completely to him. This is all I ever wanted in my life. Everything everyone dreams of is here infront of me. And I cant make the mistake of letting it go.

I crash my lips onto his and instantly put my palms on his face. Feeling him for the second time. When I have all my senses. His tongue glids over my bottom lip asking for entrance. I blindly allow. Our tongues meet. His dominating mine. Each of us savouring the taste of each other. I never want this moment to go away. I want this to last forever. Just then he removes his lips from mine again to catch some breathe. We both are panting. Looking into each other's red eyes. Both clearly still crying.

"I love you so much Harry." The words escape my mouth without my permission and the tears fall down in the highest speed again. He is quick to notice and pulls me close hugging me tightly as I cry into his chest. He rubs my back slowly. I feel him kiss the top of my head.

"I am here for you baby. Dont worry. Just tell me you love me and I will treat you the way you always deserved. Just be mine Anna. That is all I need." He says his voice breaking down too. I pull out of his comforting embrace to look up at him. I slowly nod and see his eyes shine with brightness. A small smile creeps up onto his face and he plants a huge sloppy kiss on my forehead. "I love you so much. I have loved you since the day I laid my eyes on you."