Just let me in

Chapter 3

It was November and the weather had started to become harsh. It had been a typical day at school. Classes, bullying, eating alone and walking home. Today the bullying had been worse and I had ended up being shoved against a locker, earning a bruise on my jaw. I was sitting against a tree hidden from everyone else because of the forest that lined the back of our school. Today would have been Kris's birthday, and I missed him. Some of his friends had come and asked me where he was, and when I didn't give them an answer swore at me and moved on with their lives. I wished I could move on, but I couldn't. I wasn't strong. I was a coward. I soon felt the familiar itch on my wrists and pulled the small blade from my bag, anabel and the others words swimming through my mind. Ugly bitch. Worthless piece of shit. I pressed the blade to my skin and watched the blood fall from my wrist. I grimaced at the pain, but sliced again and again, until I heard voices. No one ever came into the woods. One of the voices sounded familiar.

"Daphne! You cheated on me! You can't just kiss me once and everything will be fine again!" Great! I hated conflict. I grabbed the small towel I kept and wiped away the blood. I wrapped the towel around my wrist and returned the blade to my bag, preparing to get up, when daphne came and stood in front of the tree I was leaning on. I quickly hid behind it so she wouldn't see me. Her and her friends had already done enough to me today.

"How many times can I say sorry? And he kissed me!"

"Well, you didn't try and stop him!"

"Don't you trust me? I'm your fucking girlfriend for gods sake!"

"Ex-girlfriend! We're through!"

"You're going to regret that Jax!"

"I won't miss you" he repled coldly and daphne stormed off. Jax came and leant on the tree muttering "good riddance" under his breath. He moved and I yelped as he stepped on my hand.

"Hello? Who's there?" He walked around the tree to find me sitting on the ground clutching the hand he had trodden on, which also happened to be the hand I had cut.

"Uh, Cassidy right?"

"Yeah."

"Oh, crap! you're bleeding! I didn't do that did I?" I shook my head, and bit my lip in an attempt to hold back the tears that were threatening to spill. Not because of the pain, but because of his kindness. "Wait. You didn't...uh...cut yourself did you?" I nodded. Now he knows how much of a fuck up I am. The tears rolled down my cheeks. "Aw Cassidy! Why?" He bent down and pulled me into a hug. Overcome by his kindness I started sobbing into his chest. "Can I have the blade?"

"W...what?" I asked.

"So you don't try and cut again. Can I have the blade?" He asked again.

"How do I know that your not just gonna go and cut yourself with it?"

He started laughing.

"Why do you care so much about other people?"

"Why do you?" I said wiping away the tears.

"Wait your the one everyone calls mute, right?" I nodded. "Then why are you being nice to me, when I've probably called you a mute as well?"

"Because your the first person in 10 months that's shown any care to me at all." I smiled at him sadly, and he looked completely shocked.

"God." He muttered." Hang on a minute. 10 months! I'm so sorry Cassidy!" He pulled me in for yet another hug, and memories of kris came flooding back. How he would help me on the death anniversary of my parents and how he would give the best hugs, and how he would make me feel special and loved, like I was his real older sister. God I missed him so much. The tears started rolling down my cheeks again.

"Your crying again! What's wrong lovely?"

"It's a completely different reason. Don't worry. I'll look after myself." I reached into my backpack and pulled out the blade and handed it to him. "Here." I heard a voice calling Jax. I knew that voice all too well. It was Kellin.

"Over here, Kel!" He called. I slipped away from Jax quietly when he turned around to shout to Kellin.

"Hey. I saw daph come outta here crying so I thought-"

"Hey where did she go?"

"Where did who go, Jax?"

"Ca- never mind. What did you want?"

"Just wanted to see if you were ok, bro. What happened with daphne?"

"Oh. She cheated on me and we broke up. It's ok. I'm over her."

"Ok, buddy. Let's go. The others are waiting." They walked away and I saw Jax turn and glance back in my direction, and I shot him a small smile and mouthed 'thank you'. He gave me a thumbs up and walked away. I sensed that he was a kind person, so I trusted him.