Just let me in

Chapter 24

A.N
Pic above just makes me laugh. Sorry it's a bit random 😳
[Jesse's P.O.V]
What she showed me was just...words can't describe it. I felt her fear. She felt abandoned by her own brother! Everything made sense now. Why she was always so scared. Why she flinched at the slightest movement. I understood why she was so broken. She been through so much. Too much. She never had a childhood, because she was recovering from the horror that was her life before she was adopted, and when she finally adjusted life threw another hurdle her way. I couldn't believe it. It wasn't fair. If I could take away even a quarter of the pain she held everyday, and could take it myself, then I would. But I couldn't. I knew now and I was going to look after her. She'd told me about her vision thing, and at first I thought she was crazy but I started to understand after a while. She never wanted to show me because she thought I'd leave. She was an incredibly strong person but she was always scared. Scared that people would leave her, and in the end that's exactly what happened. The people she needed the most had always left her and I didn't want to be one of those people.
"Cassie?" I whispered. She didn't say anything. "Cassie?" I was holding her in my arms now. I shook her but she didn't even stir. "C'mon now Cass!" I pushed her off me gently so that she was lying flat on the bed, and when I looked down I realised. My hands were covered in blood. Her blood. "Oh no." I breathed. "Oh no no no NO!" Tears were running down my face. I'd made one of the biggest mistakes ever. You should never let someone bleeding fall asleep. "Cassidy! Can you hear me? Please wake up!" She wasn't moving. I found her wrist and felt for a pulse but it was weak. I could hardly feel it. I was starting to panic. All I wanted was to close my eyes, crawl into a hole and disappear. It was my fault. I pushed her to this. I didn't check her. "K...Kellin! Jax! Ana! Someone! Please!!" I typed in 999 and called an ambulance. I soon heard footsteps and everyone burst through the doors to find Cassidy lying on the bed covered in blood and me a blubbering mess on the floor.
"Fuck what happened?!" Zach screeched
"T...there... I...I've called a...an a...ambulance I I can't!" I hugged my knees and sobbed my eyes out.
"Eddie and Zach get Jesse out he's having a panic attack and he needs air. Go! NOW!" Jax ordered. He was always the best in these situations. He kept calm. "Kellin. You know Cassidy the best and Jesse's in no fit state, so you stay with me incase she wakes up. Calum you stay as well. Jake you go tell Daphne Ana and Max to go home and Toby-"
"Tells us what?" Ana and the others stood in the doorway.
"Cassidy's bleeding too much. She's passed out and we're waiting for the ambulance. Go home, we'll take it from here."
"Yeah I'll see you later baby."
"No I'll come. Daphne take max and go." They left and we were able to get past. From then everything went by as if it was a dream. No, a nightmare. All I saw was a sudden crowd as the guys lifted Cassidy down the stairs and they walked outside with the paramedics. I wanted to go in the back of the ambulance. I didn't want Kellin near her, but I was a mess and I didn't know if Jax could handle it after the last time. Before I could fight back Jax was told to stay and Zach was in the ambulance. Jax was on the phone, and before long we all piled up into Gabe's minivan and were heading to the hospital. I couldn't do anything. I was frozen. I was being dragged around when we got to the hospital. I just couldn't do it. It was my fault.
A.N
Sorry guys it's really short and bad :/ I should update more often now and thanks to everyone reading this. :)