Just let me in

Chapter 8

A.N

😋😎 thanks soooo much to everyone reading this! I honestly didn't even expect anyone too. I kinda just wrote this for myself, but it means soo soooo sooooo soooooo much too me guys ☺️ thanks so much for reading, and hopefully I will update more often, but I just got a puppy!! 🐶 So let's see....😝

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- Riya 😆

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Kellin's P.O.V

After she slammed the door on me I slid down and leant on it, tears running down my cheeks. I knew I hadn't been there for her when I should have been, but didn't she say she forgave me? I don't understand why Cassidy affected me like this, I mean I have a girlfriend it's not like I like Cassidy. She was right I really do need to sort my shit out. Her words hurt though, and nothing could stop that. She was one of the only people that could make me hurt so bad, and she didn't know. She didn't realise just how much I cared, and the only reason I left her alone after I said those things was because I didn't think that she would want to speak to me again. I didn't want to make her have to talk to me because it would've hurt her. But I was selfish, because that wasn't the only reason. I couldn't face her. I was too much of a coward, whereas Cassidy was such a strong person. It seemed like she was stronger than I realised too. I didn't understand why she was avoiding the question, though. There was something going on, but I had pushed too hard. I needed to be patient with her. She would tell me in her own time. I needed to gain her trust again. But it was so goddamn hard when all I wanted to do was pull her into a hug every time she looked sad, and I wanted to know everything about her again. I looked up as I had finally realised that it was raining. I was almost soaking already. I didn't want to leave in case she opened the door or hurt herself or something, but I needed to sort myself out. I was going to stay with her, or at least I would try. I ran home through the rain and ran straight up to my room, locking the door to try and block out the lecture my mum was giving me about waiting for dinner and not knowing where I was. I quickly packed a bag of clothes and my uniform and things and unlocked my door, mumbling sorry as I walked past.

"And where do you think you're going?"

"I'm staying with Cassidy. She's alone at her house and has been for a while now I think."

"Oh. Well, don't do anything bad, or anything, um, well uh."

"Mum, shuddup." I joked as we both blushed. I pulled her into a quick hug and disappeared down the stairs.

"Kel! why don't you take some of our dinner for her!" She ran down the stairs behind me. "She can have a hot meal then, and I'm going to have some left anyway."

"Uh, ok mum." She put the food in a box and gave it to me. "Bye mum!" I didn't run this time. I let the rain soak me through, but it helped me think. I turned the corner and ended up on her street. There was a bench, so I sat down and thought about what I was going to say. She needed time, and I was going to give it to her. I had realised that she thought I was going to leave her just like that, but I had lost her once, and I will most definitely not lose her again. She needed, no deserved to know that. I was here for her, but it clearly didn't seem like it. I got up and turned back deciding to go to the park quickly. I ran across the road, and when I got to the park ran to our old favourite patch. Cassidy used to love it because the flowers there were the prettiest ones in the park. I picked up four different coloured ones and ran out of the park. The corner shop was about to close, but luckily the lovely, old lady who ran the shop let me in as long as I was quick. I went around the small shop twice until I found some ribbon. I quickly went to the till and paid.

"What's the ribbon and the flowers for then, at this time of night?"

"Um, my uh friend."

"And is this friend a girl by any chance?"

"Uh yeah. She is. We got into a bit of an argument and it was my fault, and I just got her back. I don't want to lose her again. But I know I'll end up doing something stupid because for some reason my girlfriend hates Cassidy when Cassidy is such an amazing person, and anabels the one who made me say those stupid things to cass, and I just.... I need Cassidy in my life. Sorry. I'm rambling."

"No don't worry, lovely. Sounds like you've got some sorting out to do. I hope you win her back." I paid for the ribbon and tied it around the flowers and said bye to the lady. "Oh, and I hope you two get together. She sounds lovely!"

"We're uh, not together or anything. I love my girlfriend. She's uh my uh best friend."

"Hmmm well good luck with that." As I left she shouted, "I'll be expecting a ticket to the wedding!" I blushed but a small smile crept it's way onto my face. I knew she was talking about the wedding of Cassidy and I, and I couldn't help thinking how beautiful Cassidy would look on her wedding day, and for me to be the groom...

I mentally slapped myself. Cassidy's you're best friend. You don't want to mess that up again. You love anabel.

I ran the rest of the way to her house, so that the flowers wouldn't get to wet.

I knocked quietly three times on the door. I leant my forehead against the cold wood, and whispered,

"Cass? Can I come in?" I heard a muffled sigh on the other side.

"Are you as wet as I think you are?" I chuckled and looked down at myself.

"YES!" I half shouted half laughed. I hid the flowers behind my back.

"Why did you come back?" she whispered.

"Because you deserve company. You don't deserve to be alone, cass. And besides, why are you sitting on the other side of the front door?" She chuckled lightly." Can I be your company?" I got no answer, and after a couple of minutes sighed and turned around. I started walking towards the gate, when the door swung open and she whispered to me.

"Kellin? Yes. There's no one I would rather have as company." She smiled, her smile. The smile that wasn't perfect, but to me there was nothing that looked more perfect. I dropped the flowers and ran up to her. I picked her up in a massive hug and lifted her up. I took her into the rain. "Kellin! Its raining! Put me down! I'm getting all wet! gettoffme!

"Nope!" I said popping the 'p'. She kept laughing. I saw the flowers on the ground and put her down on the doorstep. She shivered, so I put my jacket around her shoulders. She tried to shrug it off but I wouldn't let her. I grabbed the soaked flowers and gave then to her. "Uh they uh kinda died." She started laughing at me.

"You didn't. Are these the-"

"Flowers from the park, yeah." I wrapped my hand around the back of my neck in a nervous gesture.

"Kellin!" She wrapped her arms around my neck, and kissed my cheek. I blushed and she laughed.

"Shuddup." I muttered which just made her laugh more.