Just let me in

Chapter 18

I woke up to see someone standing over me. I screamed and hid under the covers.
"Cassidy! Chill. It's me, Kellin. Get up already. Jax wants you." He walked out of the room. I knew he was angry at me still, but I don't understand how he could think that I trashed my own room. I loved those pictures, and he knew that. I sighed and got up. I went into the bathroom, locked the door, and stripped off my clothes. I replaced the old bandages with new ones, and went back into my room to get some clothes. I decided on a batman crew neck, ripped black skinny jeans and a beanie. I was going to go back home to get some more books for school, since is wasn't planning on spending the day with the she devil and her friends. I checked the hallway to see that the coast was clear and legged it downstairs. I grabbed my backpack and a black beanie and slipped on my old vans. I didn't want to ruin the new ones that Kellin had bought me. As I was leaving Jax stopped me.
"Where are you going? You're not leaving are you?"
"No I uh I'm just nipping home to get some books for school s'all."
"Oh, ok. Do you want me to come with you?"
"No. I'm alright thanks. You have fun today." I turned the handle and walked out. But before I left I saw Kellin watching me from the window upstairs. I just glared back at him and hurried away.
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[ Jax's P.O.V ]
"Where's she going?" I turned to see Kellin. I was furious at the asshole, for what he did to Cassidy.
"Home. Why are you being such an asshole, Kellin? She needs you. You don't even understand what she's gone through, and you call yourself her best friend. Your an idiot. You don't see."
"Oh, and you do? She's had nightmares since I met her, you know."
"Well, why didn't you ask why? I know you don't care. You just like to hurt her. You know she harms as well, yet you still hurt her. What the fuck is wrong with you, man?
"Oh, don't act so high and mighty. Do you know how long we spent on that room?"
"Why would she trash her own room. Didn't she say she loved it?" That shut him up. "You'd have to be blind to miss the fact that they're bullying her, Kellin. She was talking until Ana and Daphne went up to see her. I have to take her to the hospital today. Have you seen her side? It's all completely bruised and her stomach is covered with cuts. She doesn't eat or talk or anything. It's not healthy. What if she tried to kill herself, Kellin? What'll you do then?! I don't think she's that far from it, because of you. You're so nice and kind to her when Ana's not around, but the minute she is, you're a complete dick. Stop hurting her. Either start being nice or leave her alone. She can come and stay with me." His face dropped when I told him about the hospital and he had a guilty look on his face.
"Ana gets jealous what was I supposed to do she would've thought that I liked Cassidy. I love Anabel. I don't want her to leave me." I sighed and ran my hand through my hair in frustration.
"Then just act like the guys. I'll look after her." I knew he would try and say something to her but I was determined to keep her away from him. I turned around and walked away leaving him stood in the hall with a guilty face. I couldn't help but feel a little sorry for him, I mean he didn't know any of what had gone on in her life, and he loved Anabel.
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[ Cassidy's P.O.V ]
I had mainly just left in the hope that Jax would have forgotten about the hospital, but just my luck! He hadn't. Everyone else had left and it was just him at home.
"Come on Cassie. My brother's picking us up in 5."
"Ok." I shuffled past him and ran upstairs. I knew he was trying to help me but I didn't want to go. Last time I had gone, I had woken up in a bed with a bump on my head an no idea what had happened the night before.
Five minutes later I heard the door open and I was being called.
"Cassie! C'mon! We've gotta go!" I stayed quiet, even though I knew if I went my side wouldn't hurt as much. I heard the door open again and everyone come back in.
"Oh, hey gabe! What brings you here?" I heard Kellin say, cheerfully.
"Jax asked me to pick him and uh Cassidy? Up. Is that her name?"
"Oh, uh yeah it is. Shall I go and get her?"
"No, Kellin. Leave her be. I'll get her now." Jax warned him. I wasn't going anywhere.
"Ok, but she hates hospitals. Like, really hates them. Be careful, because I promise you she'll try to run." Damn! Why did he have to know me so well!
"I'm sure I'll manage." Jax's voice was ice. I soon heard footsteps and his face appeared in the doorway.
"I'm not going."
"Cassi-" He walked up to me and tried to touch me.
"Don't. Don't touch me. Why are you taking me there?"
"You have to go. I know you're in a lot of pain. I want to help you Cassidy! Please try to understand that I'm trying to help you."
"I'm sorry." I looked down at my feet. He was trying to help me and I was being such a bitch to him.
"It's ok, Cass. Don't apologise. You've done nothing wrong. I know you're scared. I don't like hospitals either. Bad things happened there." He did understand. As much as I thought he wouldn't he said the words that only someone who knew how scary a hospital was would say.
"Ok. I'll come. Just d...don't leave me." He had a huge smile on his face now, which made me giggle I response.
"Wouldn't dream of it. C'mere." He picked me up bridal style and carried me downstairs.
"I can walk, ya know?" I giggled.
"I know, but your so light it doesn't make a difference if I'm carrying you, or not. You're as light as a feather."
"Shuddup." I mumbled. He just smirked. His brother, Gabe was standing in the doorway. Jax put me down.
"Cassidy, right?"
"Uh, yeah. It's Gabe?"
"Yeah. Come on then you two. I've got places to be." He walked out with us behind him. Jax put his arm around me protectively and we walked over to where his car was parked.
"Will you sit in the back, Baby girl?"
"Yeah." I smiled at him and that reassured him that I was ok, even though I felt like I was going to throw up at any minute because of how nervous I was.
"Where to?"
"The hospital." Jax said casually.
"Why? What happened?" Gabe asked suddenly worried.
"Uh can you show him?" I didn't want to but I didn't want to disappoint Jax. He was being so kind to me. I slowly lifted up my shirt so that Gabe could see the bruises along my side.
"Jesus Christ above. Who did this?! I swear to god I'll-"
"N...no one." I put my head down. He was angry. That's all I ever did. I only made people angry. "I'm sorry."
"Honey, why are you apologising? You've done nothing wrong. I didn't mean to shout. I was just worried s'all. C'mon let's go to the hospital." His gaze softened and he turned and started to drive. Jax started to sing along softly to the radio and when Gabe realised he started singing loudly and badly, but it was on purpose.
"Gabe! GABE! Shut the fuck up! You sound like a dying whale!" I giggled at this. And Jax's face immediately brightened when he saw that I was laughing.
"Well, I'll sorry but my car my rules!" Jax groaned as Gabe turned up the music and started singing even louder. Halfway through I joined in and Jax did as well, soon after. Gabe rolled down the windows, because it was getting quite hot, and people from outside glared at us because of the racket we were creating.
I didn't even realise we were at the hospital until Jax started to get out.
"C'mon, Cassie. We're here."
"I don't think I can do this."
"Don't worry baby girl. I'll be there with you every step of the way. Don't worry. I won't leave you're side. Gabe's coming as well, so don't worry.
"O...ok." We walked up to the horrifying building. Everything bad had happened here. Jax squeezed my hand as we walked into a&e. (Sorry I've never been to a&e before so this probably isn't very realistic :/) Jax went up to the desk and started talking to the people.
"Are you ok, honey? You didn't think I missed the cuts did you?"
"I...I'm fine." Two words I hated.
"I know you're not. But seriously who did this to you? I won't tell him if you don't want me to."
"Please don't tell him. Nobody else can know, because he...he'll j...just hurt me again."
"Hey, don't worry. My lips are sealed."
"It was Max. And Daphne."
"Daphne as in his old girlfriend daphne? The one who cheated on him?" I nodded my head. "That bitch. and who's max?"
"No one. Please. Max can't find out. Please don't let him find out I told! What have I done of course he'll find out!" Tears were running down my cheeks as I panicked.
"Cassidy, calm down!" I started to shake and got up to run. I was about to run past the desks when I ran into someone. I fell on the floor in a mess and sobbed into my hands.
"Are you alright there, miss?" The man I had run into asked.
"Cassie! Hey! Hey, what happened?" Jax asked frantically.
"Sorry." Gabe said to the man.
"S'alright. Is she ok?"
"Yeah she's fine."
"Cassidy. Look at me." Jax gently brushed the hair off my face and then saw the gash from yesterday. He gasped. "Who's been hurting you like this, Cass? This is serious. Look at your forehead!" I looked up at Gabe and he made a zip sign across his lips. He wouldn't tell.
"N...no one." I looked down.
"Cassidy. I'm trying to help you."
"But he'll hurt me more." My eyes widened in shock and I covered my mouth with my hand.
"So, it's a he?"
"No!" He sighed.
"C'mon Cassidy. It's time to go in." He lifted me up to my feet and left me trailing behind him. I knew he was angry at me because I wouldn't tell him.
The appointment was quick. I was right. I had a broken rib, and a sprained ankle. My cuts were examined and rebandaged, and I was given yet another batch of anti-depressants and the number of another therapist that I wouldn't go to, or would sit there not talking for an hour wasting money. I was given some pain medications and a crutch just in case. They bandaged my forehead and sent us home. The journey was silent, but I asked Gabe if we could stop by my house first, so that I could put the anti-depressants with the rest of them,in the cupboard in my bathroom. Jax tried to get me to take them put I simply said no, and he knew to stop persisting. He said that he was definitely taking me to the therapist though, and I was too tired to argue. The pills that they gave me in the hospital must have been drowsy and I fell asleep with my head on Jax's lap until we got back to Kellin's house. I felt myself being carried upstairs an opened my eyes a little to see Gabe carrying me upstairs and Jax carrying the crutch. I was put into my bed and Jax lay next to me, but sitting up. He let my head rest in his lap, and worked on his laptop as I fell asleep with him stroking my hair lightly. It had been such an exhausting day, emotionally. But I felt myself letting Jax in and I didn't know if that was a good thing or not. But I didn't let it bother me. I just fell asleep in his lap. For the first time in months I felt safe. Safe and loved.