Just let me in

Chapter 7

A.N

Sorry for the late update I've been a bit busy. :)

- Riya

Cassidy's P.O.V

This is what I was afraid of. I knew he would notice, but I got carried away. I couldn't tell him. He wouldn't understand.

"Cassidy?" He stared at me expectantly, but I couldn't bring myself to look him in the eye, so instead I looked down, ashamed.

"I uh, thanks for walking me home. Uh, bye Kellin." I turned around and headed for the kitchen, expecting Kellin to leave. Instead he followed me.

"Cassidy, I'm not leaving you alone. Where's Kris, and Clemmie? Or your parents? You can't be alone." With that I knew I couldn't tell him.

"I uh.... they're uh...um."

"Cassidy, am I leaving? Or staying? where is your family?"

"Your leaving." I stormed out of the kitchen and opened the front door. Kellin just stood facing me. "Go."

"No. Answer the question. It's not that hard." He was getting irritated, which was not a good thing. Kellin had a fierce temper. When he was angry at you, you would know. It was hard not to notice.

"Urgh! Look Kellin, you don't need to know the answer. Besides, you won't understand anyway. Too wrapped up in yourself. Get out of my house. I knew you hadn't changed. Still the popularity craving, stupid dickhead you've always been!" He just stood there and stared at me." Get the fuck out of my house!" He just smirked at me. "Get the fuck out now, Kellin. I don't want to see you here again. Ever! Just leave me alone!" I pushed him out of the door, and attempted to slam the door in his face, but his foot stopped it.

"I'm wrapped up in myself? Cassidy, you don't see that I'm someone who wants to get to know you again. I care. You're just so fucking blind sighted! you can't see that maybe someone is trying to help you! You push me away, when it would be easier just to tell me what's happened. I'll listen. We're not kids anymore. There's nothing you can tell me which will stop me from caring. Just let me in! Stop pushing everyone away!"

"I don't need your help!" I spat.

"See! Everyone needs someone there for them, Cassidy, and I'm offering."

"Offering?!" I laughed sarcastically." You're offering?! You don't get it, Kellin, and you never will. You're right. We're not kids anymore. I grew up. You're still a child. You think you know everything. You don't know a fucking thing about me, and you were so caught up with being popular that you couldn't even see what was happening to the people around you. The people you left behind. Just get out, Kellin. I don't want to let you in. I don't need anyone, and even if I do, it won't be you." I knew this was just an argument and I was avoiding the question, but sometimes that boy just made my blood boil. He looked so hurt by what I had said, and a part of me knew that what I had said was unfair, but he just needed to leave me alone. He was frustratedly rubbing his temples to stop a headache.

"Cassidy, just stop creating arguments and liste-"

"Creating arguments?!" I scoffed. " I'm just so fucking tired of this, Kellin. You never see who, or how much you hurt someone. Just go. Now. Talk to me when you figure you're shit out, and grow up. I pushed him back slightly and slammed the door. As soon as it was locked I slid down, leant against the door and cried my heart out. I thought I had run out of tears after the accident, but Kellin just brought it all back. I needed him, but he broke me, and I didn't want to be broken anymore. I hugged my knees to my chest and sobbed. We had fought a lot today, and a part of me knew I had started the arguments, but it was Kellin too. He just didn't know how to deal with other peoples problems, when he had never had to. Sobs wracked my body and I slid down further so that I was lying on the cold tiled floor. My wrists ached for a cut, but I didn't have the strength to move, so I lay on the floor and cried.