Just let me in

Chapter 26

*time jump ~ At the hospital
[Cassidy's P.O.V]
Beeping. What was that stupid beeping. All I could see was darkness. But there was silence. For once I had silence. There were no voices. No people. No pain. I felt nothing. I wanted to stay like this forever. It was so peaceful. Well, it was peaceful until I heard that stupid beeping. Where was I? I wasn't sleeping. No, I definitely wasn't sleeping. I couldn't move. I felt like my head was somewhere else from my body, like I was just a soul. So where was I. The last thing I remember was darkness. Darkness and then this damn beeping. Wait. A door. A...and footsteps where am I? Where the actual fuck am I?! I wanted to panic. To move. To open my eyes but I was frozen.
"Cassidy!"
"Hey, Jesse! Stop she's asleep."
"Look at her! She's so fucking pale! This is all my fault Kellin. I should've looked after like I said I would! She wouldn't be here otherwise! It's all my fault. All my fucking fault." I heard sobs and Kellin trying to calm him down. "All I want to do is hold her and kiss her and make her smile and laugh, and make her happy like properly happy. But I can't. How do you know that she's sleeping how do you know that we're not losing her!"
"Jesse! Don't say that. If it's anyone's fault it's mine. You can't blame yourself. I'm the one that flipped and scared her. I'm the one that pushed her to this. She's...she's g...gonna be ok. Jesse, s...she is. She's a fighter." I couldn't do anything I just wanted to move. I just wanted them to know that I was ok. But why couldn't I move?
"Jesse?" The door opened and shut quietly. "The doctors said you guys need to leave so they can wake her up." The noises became less clear and soon enough I was slipping back into the peaceful darkness.
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"Cassidy? Lovely can you hear me? Can you move? Or.. or open your eyes?" Could I? I had resurfaced now and had gained control of myself again. I slowly opened my eyes but quickly shut them because of the bright light. "Good. You're up. Are you feeling any better?" I just shook my head. It was better to say no then to pretend I was fine. I don't even know why I'm at the hospital. "Ok, well I'll send a nurse in now with some tablets. I've got a group of worried boys out there now. Who do you want to come in? They can't all come in sorry lovely. It's a maximum of 4 people."
"O...ok um c...can you g..get Kellin i...in please?"
"Sure honey. The nurse will be in soon to check up and with your medicines."
"T..thank y..you." I heard some murmurs outside and a door quietly open and shut. I was so fucking weak. I had already used up most of my strength in taking and shaking my head. I couldn't even turn my head to see is it was Kellin.
"Cass...Ca..Cassidy. You're awake!" He walked over to my bed as if expecting me to be able to lift myself up so he could hug me or something. I couldn't block him out though. I was too weak at the moment both mentally and physically to put up the mental shield that saved me from the world. The one that stopped me hearing what people thought. All his thoughts rushed into my once peaceful mind.
"K...kellin! S...stop t...thinking." I whisper shouted as I could not manage much more.
"Cassidy! W..what's wrong? What's happening? Shall I get the doctor in? Yeah I should! Doctor! I heard a rush of people but passed out again. What the fuck but me in here in the first place...
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A.n
Sorry guys it's short and bad and late. Ugh schools just started now as well...... -_-