Just let me in

Chapter 19

I woke up screaming. Again. I hadn't had this many nightmares in a while, but I guessed that it was probably because it was almost a year since they died.
"Cassidy? What's wrong? Hey, hey! Calm down. C'mere." I was pulled into a hug. My vision was blurred because of the tears. Whoever was hugging me squeezed my side and I let out a shriek."What! What happened?!"
"N...nothing." I looked over to see Kellin. Holy shit. How was I going to explain my way out of this?
"He told me it was bad but..."
"Wait, what?" He reached over and attempted to lift up my shirt. I flinched and jumped away from him." What the actual fuck are you doing?"
"Let me see it. Jax told me Cass."
"D...don't call me that." I muttered. Kellin just looked angry, but could you blame me? I let him lift Kris' t-shirt a little so that he could see my stomach. God I was so fat.
"C...cassidy!" His voice shook, and I saw tears rolling down his cheeks.
Well done bitch. You made him cry. That's how ugly you are.
He ran his fingers over the cuts slowly and lightly, making me shiver. His hand then traveled to my side and he pressed, but only lightly, not meaning to hurt me. I gasped, and bit my lip."W...who did this to you? I swear to god I'll kill them!"
"You won't like the answer." I mumbled and put my head down, in an attempt to block him out.
"Hey, don't push me away Cass."
"Cassidy. My name's Cassidy!"
"Sorry." He said sarcastically.
"J...just leave." I refused to let him hurt me anymore. He looked hurt, but I just ignored him as he walked out. He stopped and turned back.
"When's the last time you ate?" He asked, concern filled his face.
"Last weekend." He opened his mouth to protest, but decided against it. He left.
Suddenly I was grabbed and pulled up.
"Who else did you tell, you little snitching bitch!"
"N...no one!"
"Don't lie to me! I know exactly who you told!"
"J...jax!" I cried out in pain as she punched my side, but Daphne's hand covered my mouth as she repeatedly punched me in the side.
"Your little breaks over. We told you not to talk, and what did you do? I told you what would happen."
"No! Please! Please don't! I'll leave! I'll pack up and go! Please just don't call him! Please!" I begged and sobbed at the same time. I was shaking in fear at the thought of it.
"Your pathetic!" She dropped me back on the bed and kicked me. Hard. The pain was too much as I passed out.
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"Cassidy! Are you still sleeping? C'mon, lunch is ready." I stood up, but gasped and fell onto the floor, leaning against the bed. I sucked in air an tried to ignore the shooting pain in my side. "Have you taken your meds?" I shook my head. "Wait here." He ran out and came back with two small pills. I swallowed them dry and let my head flop. It hurt so much.
"I...it hurts."
"I know baby girl. C'mon. I'll carry you?"
"You can carry me but I'm not eating."
"Why?"
"I'm not hungry."
"I know that's a lie. Kel told me that you haven't eaten in a week. Is that true?" I slowly nodded my head. "Cassidy."
"I c...cant eat! I'm s...so fat!"
"Fat?! What the fuck are you talking about? Your like a fucking stick! There's not an inch of fat on your body! Who told you that you were fat?!" I was crying now. He could tell me that I wasn't all he liked, but I wasn't going to believe him. I knew what I saw in the mirror everyday. "Please, baby girl. Half a piece of toast? For me? I won't even put butter on it!" I looked at him, and he looked so hopeful. I sighed.
"Fine." He got up and did this weird little victory dance thing that made me giggle. He then scooped me up in his arms and ran downstairs. He put me down outside the kitchen, and we walked in giggling and holding hands. I stopped dead in my tracks when I saw what was in front of me. I swallowed the lump in my throat, and my face went white as a sheet.
"Oh, hey Cassidy. I don't know if you remember me. I'm max." He held out his hand and gave me a sick smile that made my stomach turn. I shook his hand and straight away turned and ran towards the stairs. A pair of arms wrapped around me, and I was lifted into the air kicking and screaming. Whoever it was out me on the sofa, and sat on me.
"You promised, Cassidy! Half a piece with no butter."
"Please Jax! Let me go!"
"Not until you promise not to run and promise to go and eat that bread."
"Ok, fine! I promise!" He slowly, but cautiously got off me. I sat up and shuffled into the kitchen mumbling "sorry about that." Jax walked in and gave max a bro hug. I cringed at the sight of it, and was kicked in the shin, hard, by Anabel. I squealed, but luckily no one noticed. Jax made me the toast and I ate it quickly and after rushed upstairs. The medication had started to kick in, and I was starting to get really sleepy. I soon fell asleep.