Just let me in

Chapter 28

'Is she ok?'
'She doesn't look it.'
'Kel chill out'
'I hope she wakes up'
'Well she will if you guys keep talking so loud.'
'Guys shhhhhhhh!' I said while keeping my eyes closed. When I opened them I saw the 4 worried faces of Kellin, Joshua and Mikey and Jesse, but was suddenly engulfed in a massive group hug. 'I c...can't b....breathe!' I choked out.
'Sorry Cass, guys get off her!' I took in a massive breath after the four of them got off me
'Don't EVER scare us like that again!' They all said together.
'I know and I'm so sorry. I love you all you three are like family and Jesse your one of my best friends and I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am. I didn't do it on purpose though I swear...' I couldn't look them in the eyes anymore I could feel the disappointment radiating off them all  But it was Kellin who spoke first.
'Cassie look at us.' I felt a hand gently tilt my chin upwards. 'We all love you so incredibly much. The thought of losing you damn nearly killed us. We can't lose you, and just talk to us next time. I know I would rather hear you and hear what's got you down rather than seeing you in this bed! We love you, please Cassie, believe me, we do you are loved.' He was crying. I immediately felt bad, because now I had to get better. For them. Kellin and his family had always been like a second family to me and now they were slowly becoming my new family and I did love them too much to hurt them like this again.
'I'm sorry. I know you do. I don't know where I'd be without all of you. I love you so much.' I was crying now as well, and before I knew it all 4 of them were hugging me again. After I spoke to josh kells and mikey they left, leaving me alone with Jesse. I couldn't look him in the eye. I could feel the disappointment.
'Jez I'm really sorry I am.'
'Cass I want you to get better! I'm helping too, at least I'm trying to but you're the only one that can change this. You need to eat for starters. Second you need to look at me. Cassie please. I love you. Seeing you like this doesn't make me love you any less.'
'Y....you what??'
'Yeah I love you. I'll shout it from the roof if you want me to. I've known you since we were 10 years old. I know that's not as long as kells, but ever since I saw you for the first time there was something. I can't deal with you trying to push me out! I know why and I know it's gonna take time to get better, but baby you'll get there, and whether you love me or even like me back I'm gonna be there to help you every step of the way. But please, I thought I'd lost you. I never would have been able to live with myself if I had lost you. Think of it this way. You're my reason not to leave.' He bent down to me so that we were eye level. 'You jump, I jump.'
'Jesse, I love you.'
'I'm not gonna hurt you Cassie, I promise.' I loved him. I did. Why did I never see him. He loved me. He always had. Jesse was always there for me he'd never hurt me. Ever.
'I know.' I smiled softly at him and he returned it before lightly kissing my forehead, blushing, and then saying bye and walking out, which made me laugh. He could be so goddamn awkward sometimes but it made me laugh.
After I spoke to the others, a nurse came by with some food which I ate nearly half of encouraged by Jesse, well basically forced, but I was gonna get better so it didn't matter.
'Darling I've gotta run down the road a sec so I'll see you later. The doc will be coming round soon with your meds anyway. Love you baby.'
'Love you too jez.'
About 10 mins after Jesse left there was a soft knock on the door.
'Cassidy?'
'Hey Jax.'
'Oh god, you look terrible.' We both started laughing and he came in. There was a bit of an awkward silence after that, but then he spoke.
'Cass I'm really sorry. I should've been here earlier or at least when they admitted you.' He looked around nervously and then down at his feet.
'Jax you've got nothing to be sorry about I'm still surprised that you came! I know how much you hate hospitals.' It was true he hated them. Maybe even more than I hated hospitals. When Jax was fourteen, he had a 16 year old sister. Jax and her - Emma- were practically joined the hip. Jax absolutely loved her. I'd met her a couple of times, and she was really sweet. She was mugged when she went up to London with her friends and suffered a bad head injury which caused amnesia. It drove her crazy and she was already suffering from depression before this, and she committed suicide a couple months after, because she hated letting everyone down. Ever since Jax hated everything that even remotely reminded him of her. 'Thank you. For coming here. You honestly didn't need it. Bad memories right? It's the same here, I'm really sorry I caused this. You didn't need that.'
'Cass of course I was gonna come. I had to see you were ok. Just, I mean you've probably been hearing it all day, but we all need you here. Don't, I mean you can't just try and leave us. There's people here that need you. I need you. I've been here the whole time Cass. I gave you blood.' He pulled up his sleeve to show the bandage on his shoulder where they'd taken blood. I couldn't believe it! I wasn't just selfish enough to make him come here after all he'd been through, but he was the reason I was probably alive right now. 'They didn't have much, turns out we're the same blood group and all. I'm not letting you get away that easily.'
' I can't believe you did that Jax! For me... I-'
'Cassidy you better believe it, because you are worth it and I've never been more glad. Put it this way. I did it for Em. She'd be proud of me right now.'
'Jax I can't believe you. Damn I'm not crying I swear it's just... Ah shit get your ass over here and hug me!' He started laughing, but still came over and hugged me.
'Cassidy Quinn Grant I left for 10 mins what did you do?'
'Me?! You've got your shit wrong here man it was him!'
'Oh cmon now! See here. Jax, did you make Cassidy cry?'
'Nope.' Jax smirked.
'See.' Jez poked his tongue out at me.
'Thought I was your girlfriend.'
'Sorry Cass Jez is my one and only'
'Gay.'
'Oi your just jealous of our love.'
'Hmf.'
'It's ok Cass! I love you too!' Jax came over and wrapped me in a hug, so I poked my tongue out at Jesse.
'I stole your boyfriend from you ha! He likes me more because I'm prettier than you!'
'Can't argue with that logic now Jax get yo hands of my girl.'
'Jax don't leave me with him.' I pouted.
'The lady wants what the lady wants. Sorry Jesse you've been replaced.'
'Fine! I can see when I'm not wanted.' He stormed out jokingly but suddenly there was a crash.
'Right all of you OUT ! You can come back tomorrow morning but please LEAVE and watch where you're going to on the the way out !!'
'Sorry.' Grumbled the others outside.
'What was that all about?' Jesse poked his head round the corner.
'Umm Cassie? I kinda bumped into your doc and he's not too pleased so we've um gotta go. But I'll be back tomorrow morning asap,ok. They're letting you go tomorrow anyway so I'll bring you some spare clothes. Bye darl, and cmon Jax.'
'Bye Cass I'll swing by with him tomorrow.'
'Bye guys.' They left and my doctor who was luckily more calm came back with my pills and I soon fell asleep.
A.N.
Hey guys rly sorry I haven't updated in forever but thanks so much for reads and votes and all means loads <3
-Riya