Once I finally stood up and changed into pajamas , as well as taking my smeared makeup off , the guys were quiet . I walked out of the bathroom and sat in the middle of my bed , thinking . I looked around and saw the guys crashed out everywhere with their mouths wide open . I felt the side of the bed dip and then a body scoot closer to me . " Hey , I heard about what happened " Sam said , wrapping an arm around my waist . I sniffed and turned towards him . " Yeah .. It was a total disaster " I frowned . He began staring at me , wanting to know more about how I felt . But the truth is , this didn't feel right at all . I should've just stayed with Carter . I slowly began playing with his hands , not knowing what else to do . " Paiton , you know you can talk to me " Sam whispered , using his index finger to lift up my chin . I looked into his eyes and felt guilt wash over me . Leading Sam on was the last thing I wanted to do . " You can sleep with me if you want to , even though it's not in this room " He suggested . I shook my head and inhaled deeply . " No thanks . I just want a bed to myself so I can just think " I said , biting my lip . Sam nodded , kissed my nose , and walked out of the room . I was so glad that I didn't give into him . Carter was the only thing on my mind and I probably would've made it 10x worse than it should have been . Soon , I found myself laying in bed on my phone . " Paiton , look I'm sorry for everything that's happening between you and Carter . He's being such a douche and I'm reall- " " Matt , it's fine . I'll be okay " I interrupted , plastering a smile on my face . Shawn grunted and looked into his lap . Then back up at me . " You do realize that I know when people fake smile right ? You don't have to lie to us . We care . " He said , causing a small smile to creep onto my lips . " Yeah , I mean we already know you're gonna be okay - just maybe not today " Cam said . " Pretty much my life story " I mumbled . " But thanks guys " . Nash smiled and hugged me tightly . " GROUP HUG TO MAKE PAITON SMILE " Jacob yelled . Soon , all of the boys were piled around me squeezing me so tight that it was hard to breathe . I laughed and looked at every one of the boys , the people who would become my family for the next couple weeks . I'm so glad that it was them .
Carter's POV
Disaster . The whole day has been a complete disaster . Yes , I know that I shouldn't have called Deborah over to comfort me but I honestly didn't think that she cared at the time . Kissing Deb didn't feel right at all , it felt as if I was making out with a dog . Paiton makes me feel so different and brings the good out in me ; even in the few days that we've spent together , she always knows how to get me to smile even if she's not trying . Now that I'm sober , I realize that I was being a complete dick to her for yelling at her . I was drunk at the time but I still felt guilt running through my veins . Seeing her cry was the worst possible thing that I have seen for a while . Not that she's ugly when she cries - she's beautiful all the time , but once I saw her eyes getting puffy and the tears streaming down her face my heart shattered .
It's 3am now and I told Deborah that I was just upset & that nothing meant anything to me last night . It took a while but I finally got her to leave me alone . Now , I'm standing outside of the hotel room trying to contemplate what to say the everyone . I knew all of the guys would yell at me or become part-time jerks , but I deserve it . Right now , I just want to see Paiton and no one else . She deserves someone better than me , but I know that I can change with a little help . And that help is Paiton .
I slowly opened the hotel door and shut it quietly , before tiptoeing to the bed . A wave of relief came over me when I saw her sleeping by herself in our bed . She looked so peaceful , but I knew it would change as soon as she saw my face in the morning . I grabbed a sheet off of the bed and then a pillow before making myself comfortable on the floor . It was the least I could do for her after being such a prick . I just hope things will be cleared in the morning .
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Fanfiction“ and then it hit me - i would always love carter , unconditionally ” ------------------------------------------------ paiton jeffries is a famous viner . although she herself has fans , she is one of the biggest fangirls around . and her man crush...
