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Chapter Twenty Four

Paiton's POV

I cannot believe what has just been said . Carter had always seemed like the type of guy who never cared about anything , who just kinda slept around with girls and then left them for another . And hearing those words come out of his mouth really changed my mind about him .

But was it a good decision , pushing him out like he meant nothing to me ? He means a lot to me and we haven't known eachother long , that never usually happens with me . Yet , if I would've let him into my life and I would've forgave him he would probably leave me anyways .

" Ms.Jeffries ? " The nurse said , looking down at her clipboard and then back up at me . " The doctor says that you can go home today , but you need to be extra careful with your hand . A brace is recommended for atleast 3 weeks " She said . She flipped a paper over and her eyes continued to scan the words .

They must not have been important because she walked back out of the room . I looked down at my hand and saw that some of the bruising was letting up , but there was still bluish-green specks along my fingers .

I looked up when I heard another person walk into my room . Nash . I smiled up at him and saw that he was carrying clothes and a hairbrush .

" These are for you . Just get changed in the bathroom and come into the lobby when you're done , I have to sign papers for you " He said , setting the clothes at the edge of my bed .

Soon , he left the room . I stood up and grabbed my clothes , rushing into the bathroom and locking the door . I stared into the mirror and gasped . My hair was knotted up and I looked like I just climbed out of a trashcan .

I quickly stripped out of the gown and slipped on my undergarments , then sliding on my gray yoga pants and tanktop . I brushed my hair out and left it in its natural waves . I washed off the makeup that I had from the night before and dried my face .

Then , I grabbed my phone and got on twitter . I had millions of notifications asking if I was okay . I wondered how they knew but then tweeted ;

Hey everyone , I'm leaving the hospital with just a fractured hand . But thanks for caring about whether I was okay or not ! Love you guys and hope to see you tonight at Sunsation :-)

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The drive back to the hotel was dead silent . Most of the guys were on their phones while the others just stared out the windows . This was totally unusual . Taylor was always the person to get everyone hype , Matt always turned on the radio and sang along to every single song , Hayes and Cam were always messing around with eachother .

" Uh .. Are you guys okay ? " I asked , breaking the thick silence . Jacob looked up at me and bit his lip , then looked back at his phone . " None of us want you hurt " He mumbled .

" I'm fine now ! It's only a fracture ! " I exclaimed , trying to ease up everyone's bad mood . " Yeah but you wouldn't have needed to go to the hospital if it werent for that prick over there " Taylor scoffed , pointing to Carter .

Carter had a frown etched on his face and didn't say a word . I rolled my eyes at Taylor's comment . " He isn't a prick " I said . I jumped when I felt Cams hand punch the seat . " Oh he isn't a prick ?! He almost broke your freaking hand , Paiton . He wasn't even worrying about you for the slightest second but now your acting like everything's okay and defending him ?! " He raged .

I was taken back by his anger . " Enough ! Guys , we have a meet & greet today so why don't we just focus on our fans " Nash stated , leaving us all quiet .

Carter's POV

My heart sunk into my chest while I heard everyone calling me names and expressing their hate towards me . Honestly , I get enough hate from my own fans & now that I'm getting it from my friends really disappointed me .

My eyes began to water but I blinked away the tears . I never get emotional or let hate get to my head , but personally i thought what they said was true . How am I not a prick for almost breaking Paiton's hand , for not caring about her for those 5 seconds that really counted ?

I pulled my sleeve down gently and rubbed my thumb over my old scars . They were faded away but I could still feel the outline of where the blade sliced my skin . I did this a while back when I had severe depression , it's mild now but every now & then I get the urge to do it .

I've been getting so much hate , it's a daily thing that I have to go through . And now i feel like everyone's against me , like nobody cares about me anymore ... Like the blade is the only thing the can cope with the pain that I have been through and all of the terrible comments that I get .

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What do you guys think about Paiton pushing Carter away , was it the right choice or would you have taken him back ?

Also , are you surprised that I added this trait to Carter ? I did it because I want you all to realize that everyone has a breaking point , you never know what personal problems people have & you never know what will trigger them .

He receives constant hate about his ethnicity , his decisions , just basically anything to bring him down . Not only does it come from people in the fandom but it comes from his own fans , too . Don't you think that's overwhelming for him ?

He tries so much to make each and every one of us happy , why does he deserve hate ? Yeah , he makes mistakes and we not agree with his decisions but he has feelings , too .

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~ k

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