dream~fack

never

i never thought i would be here
i scanned over the crowd in front of me, the deafening sound of silence filled the room, echoing off the walls.
every once and a while you can hear a small sob erupt from the mother in hysterics, mourning the loss of her only son.
i see no familiar faces, no friends bothered to show up.
or they just couldn't face the truth.
i had to come, to see him again, to say goodbye. no matter how much it scars me.
i turn away from the platform from which i stood, trying to relive his entire life with words but it wouldn't work.
I walk slowly towards the open casket, his small frame pulling itself into my vision.
he's pale, one of his hands still clenched. he's dressed up in a suit and i shed a couple tears as i think of how ill never see him wearing this when he was, well..
alive.
i collapse onto my knees and bawl like a child. i let myself go, screaming his name through hiccups of tears.
why?

why?
then as i realize fate, the words in my head fall into place.
im sorry, jack