My Crush | ksj

12 - Reason

At half past nine, Jimin and me laid on my bed, both lost in our own thoughts.

"Don't you think it's crazy?", I rolled over onto my side, propping my head up with my elbow.

Jimin looked down at me, raising an eyebrow.

"The entire last year was the same and in the span of two weeks we made so many new friends and so much just... happened", my mind replayed the recently obtained memories. I smiled, before continuing with a more serious expression.

"For example we would've never cleaned my parents' restaurant with Kim Seokjin, Park Chanyeol and Kim Namjoon if it weren't for everything happening exactly as it did", I tucked my hair behind my ear.

Jimin contemplated for a second, before stating "To be honest, I would've never thought that any of them were nice people"

I flicked his stomach "Even Seokjin?", it never seemed as if my best friend disliked him that much.

"Well, all I ever heard from you was how HANDSOME he is", he twirled his hands for emphasis, "never that his character is actually any good"

I nodded, he actually did have a point. My crush for Seokjin was mostly based on looks and assumptions. And maybe, my gut feeling about him being a nice person had been right all along.

"Why did you even start thinking about all that philosophical stuff in the first place?", Jimin asked.

"I was trying to trace back to the reason for all of this", I sighed "at first I thought it was Jungkook having the courage to sit with us at lunch or maybe the others' teacher who set the exam during lunch break, but..."

Truly, there were a lot of coincidences involved but the initiator for all of this was still someone else.

Jimin scooted down to be able to look into my eyes "Don't credit Taehyung for any of this. I would've talked to Jungkook without his dumb introduction"

Why was he always right? "But it's easier to do so", I bit my lip "Just calling him a monster who never did anyone ever good, saying that all the bad things happened without a reason, it's like saying I am just like him"

"What do you mean?", Jimin looked concerned.

"If Taehyung is truly an evil person, then am I not just as bad as him for having contact with him? Maybe they aren't many, but there are good sides to him, there have to be", my gaze wandered to the ceiling "Otherwise, I will always blame myself for falling in love with him"

My best friend put his hand onto my head, drawing patterns with his index finger "Hayoon, there's no fault with you. You had no chance of knowing how Taehyung would treat you, no way of telling that he would hurt people this much"

I thought about it for a while "I just... It's comforting to think that the entire shitshow of being his girlfriend wasn't and isn't for nothing. That maybe it was necessary to get to where I am now"

Jimin grabbed my shoulders, forcing me to face him "It's not his doing though. If you want to believe in some stupid 'reason' for your relationship happening, don't. Stop justifying anything he ever did to you or to anyone else, for that matter"

I pursed my lips "But then, what should I believe in to make it any more bearable?", a single tear streamed down my cheek.

Jimin sighed "Karma. I strongly think that it's fate for you to meet all these new people, for having Seokjin in your life. Because the past year, he was your ray of hope, wasn't he? And now that hope is close to you and trust me, he's totally into you. So I do believe that everything will play out the right way, that Taehyung will get justice, because you deserve it, Hayoon"

My heart ached at the uplifting words of my best friend and I simply pulled him into a tight hug "Thank you for being here, Jimin"

He put his arms around my shoulder "Always"

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