My Crush | ksj

23 - Forever

~ Hayoon POV ~

The wind kept blowing strands of hair into my face, my hand brushing Seokjin's occasionally. Although I'd been confident earlier, even giving him nicknames, I now felt the butterflies in my stomach again. How could he still manage to make me feel like this, as if I was back at the beginning of the school year, having never talked to him. Seokjin just had that certain effect on me.

We walked without a plan, only wanting to end up at my house eventually. But right now I just enjoyed his presence and our mindless conversation. Occasionally stealing glances at Seokjin's face and hearing his calm voice was the epitome of happiness for me. I smiled, staring at him a bit too long.

"I think it's cute when you do that", Seokjin grinned, kicking a pebble in front of him. We had ended up taking a route through the park which was completely empty at this late hour. We fell back into silence for a while. Mostly because I tried my best not to squeal at his compliment.

I decided to pick up the conversation again "Do you think that Namjoon and Jungkookie are still fighting?"

Jin tilted his head "Nah. They have something like that every day and behaved relatively peaceful before Kookie's remark, didn't they?"

I nodded, before remembering the topic Yoongi had brought up this afternoon. My cheeks turned red because of the thoughts and questions my mind had immediately come up with – one of the three people was probably Seokjin and I... god, I wanted to change it someday. I mean, I'd been attracted to him for such a long time, it was only natural. But I didn't want him to judge me, to think of me as a slut or anything. And there was still the whole situation making it much more difficult than it had to be. But my curiosity got the better of me and I answered his rhetorical question "Well, they kind of touched that whole virgin-topic earlier"

Jin's eyes met mine and I honestly couldn't tell which one of us was more flustered. He looked extremely cute with red on his cheeks. Ah, Hayoon, focus.

He opened his mouth a few times before casually asking "Who do you think it is?"

I froze for a split-second, was I wrong about him? But my gut-instinct was almost always right, so I decided to continue playing this game "Well, Jimin for sure. I'd know if something happened between him and Yoongi. Who I'm guessing is the other one", I played with a strand of my hair, acting as innocent as humanly possible.

Seokjin shook his head "No, Yoongi already had sex, but it was just once. Still lost his v-card though", he shrugged, digging his hands into his pockets. Our footsteps on the gravel were the only sound to be heard, as if the whole world fell silent for us to have this awkward conversation that neither really wanted nor ended.

I contemplated my answer for a second, but luckily Jin continued "Hoseok. That guy's so innocent, he never talks about anyone romantically"

I couldn't help but giggle, that one was a bit unexpected. Seokjin grabbed my arm playfully "Yah, don't laugh about him!"

My heart stopped, looking into his eyes was somehow even more intense than usually. He bit his lips before adding, barely audible "I haven't had a real kiss either"

My jaw fell open. He was THAT innocent? I stammered "But you've had girlfriends, didn't you?"

Seokjin sighed "Yeah, but that was mainly out of social pressure. And I'm sure you noticed that none of them lasted long" I nodded, embarrassed by my extensive knowledge of his past relationships. He continued "It wasn't because I'm a notorious heartbreaker or anything but I just... never wanted anything more from them", his statement was sincere.

I was kind of relieved that there hadn't been anyone that interesting for him yet. Maybe I would be someday - my mind wandered off again.

Jin bit his lip, gently taking my hands into his own, sending shivers down my spine "But when I said that I wanted to kiss you, I really meant it, Hayoon, I did"

A warm fuzzy feeling overcame me, filling up my heart and upsetting my stomach even more. This confession from him felt even more special now that I knew it wasn't just an 'ordinary' kiss for him. My smile must have beamed with pride because Seokjin couldn't help but laugh a little. The tree above us rustled its leaves, the cool night air messing up our hair. Jin pulled me a bit closer, his body a welcome heat-source.

I gulped before finally finding the courage to say what I had wanted to for such a long time "I wish I could turn back the time to experience everything for the first time with you, Seokjin"

His eyes comforted me, making it easier to express my feelings. A small smile formed on his lips before he pulled me into a tight hug "We have forever to do that. And I will wait for you, even if it really takes that long"

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