My Crush | ksj

29 - Snow

"Seokjin wait, please", my voice was a lot shakier than expected. It had taken a while for my legs to start working again, making me chase Jin who had run outside. Wasn't I supposed to be angry? To my surprise, Taehyung didn't even try and stop me.

As soon as I stepped outside, I felt as if I had woken up from the dreamy haze of the previous hours. The darkness of the night, only interrupted by the white snowflakes falling onto the ground, the muffled sounds of the party, it all contrasted so drastically with the drops of blood on the snow and Seokjin's silence. My breath fogged up as I took a few more steps into his direction.

"Are you okay?", was that the only cliché phrase I could think of? I wanted to slap myself.

Jin didn't respond, instead he just stared at me, the blood still flowing from his nose. My hand slowly neared his face, scared to hurt him even more. I already did – idiot.

He jerked away "You'll get sick in this cold", he sounded worried for a second before turning around to leave.

No, this was wrong.

"Why did you take the phone?", my voice trembled, mostly because of my lack of warm clothes.

Jin faced me again "Because I wanted to delete the pictures"

Our eyes met as I considered my next few words. He MUST have seen me with Tae, how else could he have gotten the phone? But on the other hand...

"Would you really have done that?", it was rude of me to doubt him. I should just stay quiet. But I couldn't get the images out of my head – him kissing that girl.

Seokjin furrowed his brows, taking a step towards me "Why would you question that? Just because I saw you with Taehyung? For me this isn't some childish game, I actually just want to help you", his voice grew louder.

He wanted to act innocent? Fine. I took a deep breath "Well if it isn't, then why the fuck did you lie to me? I saw you with that girl, I saw you kiss her and I heard what you said to her, Seokjin. Do you think I'm that dumb? And don't even say you still give a shit about my pictures on Tae's phone, you just stole it for Namjoon's sake", tears started to fill my eyes.

Seokjin blinked, his breath steaming into the sky "You said we couldn't see each other anymore and you're still angry? You're allowed to sleep with Taehyung, it's fine. We're not together, Hayoon", he wiped away the blood on his chin.

It stung. My body felt like being stabbed by thousands of needles and my lungs were out of air. He just stated the obvious but it hurt so fucking much. He didn't care about me at all, did he? Jin thought I was doing this for myself. How could I have thought of him so highly?

"And you never asked why I told you that! You never bothered because you don't give a fuck about me, Seokjin! You lied to me, everything you said was a lie!", I screamed at him with all my might, every breath I took hurting so much because of the cold.

"It wasn't", he yelled back, balling his fists "I meant what I told you, every single word. The only lie I told was to that girl, I was nervous. Because you hurt me, Hayoon, you just left me without an explanation and I wanted to not feel like shit for once", he closed the distance between us. His eyes looked incredibly pained.

I looked away "But you didn't even try to fix it"

Silence fell upon us. Our eyes met once again and Jin finally answered "But neither did you", before he walked away, the snow crunching under his feet as I was left there, shivering.

"Hayoon, there you are", Jimin closed his arms around me as I entered the house "I heard what happened", he whispered into my ear, pulling me closer. I felt shattered, the reality of the situation truly hitting me for the first time.

"Jimin, I messed up"

A/N: helloooooo there, thank you TO THE MOON AND BACK for 700+ votes and almost 9k reads, you guys are incredible! Please keep supporting me and this story ♥
I'm currently thinking of what story to write next, would you be interested in a Jungkook story? Although I also feel like I need to write a positive one of Taehyung after portraying him as an ass in this one ;; ♥
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