Thug Lovin': Thug Misses Spin-off

(12.)

Gabriel Washington

One Week Later...

I was in my room, doing my homework, and distracting myself from all the drama that went down between me, Bella, and Ivy. I understand now why Bella didn't want to tell Ivy about us, but I didn't expect for Ivy to explode the way she did. The whole situation was out of control and I just felt like it was best that I steer clear from the both of them...just until all of this blows over. I really didn't want to though. I wanted be with Bella and I wanted Ivy to be okay with us being together, but after what happened...I doubt that would ever happen.

Picking up my phone, I saw that I had another text from Bella, but I ignored it and turned my phone off. She wasn't making this easier for me, not that she should, but I figure that in due time she'll get the message and just leave me alone.

"Ignoring that girl isn't going to make things any better." My younger brother, Quez, voiced, walking into my room.

Jacquees as Quez

"What the hell do you know?" I spat, picking my pencil back up and finishing my school work.

"Aye, don't bite my head off. I've been peeping shit though, and I know you doing what you think is right but in reality...you just hurting yourself and Bella." He said. I sighed heavily, turning towards him, as he jumped back on my bed.

"I don't know what else to do man. Because of me, Bella and Ivy ain't talking, so I thought that taking myself out of the equation would fix all of this. I was wrong though."

"Which you usually are, but whatever. I don't see why you just don't be with Bella now, since everything is out in the open."

"You wouldn't understand. You're still young." I huffed.

"Nigga I'm sixteen! I'm a year younger than you! And I do know a little something about the ladies, if you know what I'm saying." He chuckled. "But real talk...you've been drooling over Bella since we were younger and now that she's finally ready to be with your ugly ass, you wanna fall back? Why?" He questioned. 

"Because it's the right thing to do."

"Yeah whatever you say man. Just don't let a good woman like her get away." He stood up and walked out of my room, leaving me with nothing but a head filled with thoughts. Though I never listen to anything Quez has to say, he was right about a few things. I have been drooling over Bella for the longest and right when I get her exactly where I want her...this shit happens, but I'm willing to set my feelings aside for the sake of all of our friendship. 

Grabbing my phone, I turned it back on, and waited for it to power up...thinking long and hard about what I'm going to both Bella and Ivy. Hopefully once all of this is said and done, they can squash their beef and go back to being best friends.

Me: Ivy, I understand if you never want to speak to me again, but I have to get some things off of my chest. First off, I know that you've had a crush on me for the longest and I'm sorry that I didn't take your feelings into consideration. It's just that...with your pops being my God dad and vice versa, I didn't think it was appropriate to look at you in any type of way; which is why I've always saw you as a little sister.  Don't let me be the one that ruins a perfectly good relationship between you and Bella, because I can't bear to stand the thought of you two not speaking. You probably won't believe this, but Bella never wanted to be with me, out of respect for you. She knew that you liked me, which is why she refused to give me the time of day, but I also wanted her to tell you how we felt about each other. She tried her hardest to hide her feelings from me, but they were always there. If it makes you feel any better, I'll be taking myself out of the equation so that there won't be any reason you both can't resolve this. You're a special girl, Ivy, and I love you dearly. Take care.

Yeah, I sent that long ass text message to her, and it was harder then I thought it would be. Now for the hardest part. Texting Bella and letting her know that I no longer wanted to pursue a relationship with her.

Me: Bella, I know I've been ignoring your calls and text messages, but honestly...I didn't know what to say or how to say it. Because of me, you and Ivy aren't talking and I don't think we should continue whatever we had going on. You relationship with Ivy is way more important than our relationship together, and I think that it's best if we just end this thing now. I wish I could say before somebody gets hurt, but unfortunately..that's already happen. I understand now why you didn't want to tell Ivy about us and I should've listened to you. That was my fault, but Bella...I love you so much and whether you chose to hate me or not...I'll always love you. That will never change. I'm sorry about everything and I hope that you and Ivy can fix what I've broken. Take care.

Tears threaten to leave my eyes, but I refused to let that happen. I wasn't a weak ass nigga, but this needed to be done, no matter how hard and hurtful it was. I just hope that this works and I don't end up losing the two girls I love the most, besides my mama, to a stupid ass fight. We were better than this. I know that, but it's time that they figured it out too.