Killed by Cancer

Chapter 45

I groaned as I woke up to a banging headache. I tried to sit up here but there was too many tubes around me and I didn't want to detach any of them so I remained lying down. I felt warm hands holding my hands and I looked up to see Tyler.

He was fast asleep yet his hands still gripped onto mine tightly. He looked so peaceful and I didn't want to disturb him so I didn't move my hand. Why was Tyler here?

I remembered all the events that happened yesterday. How I collapsed in the shopping centre. Tyler must've bought me here. Dr Ray must've been told that I went out shopping.

Dr Ray entered the room, distracting me from my thoughts.

"Hi Alexa, how are you?" He asked.

"I've got a bad headache, apart from that I'm smashing," I said, giving him a cheesy smile.

"I'll get some morphine running through your bloodstream, it should help with the pain," he said as he injected something into one of the IV bags.

"Am I staying in this room now?" I asked.

"You're in the ICU right now, after the nurse takes some tests, I'll see if it's okay for you to return to your room," he said.

"Okay good," I said.

"You can't walk however," he said.

"What are you talking about?" I asked.

"Your radiotherapy has been giving you some serious side effects and it's made you very weak so you'll get tired easily walking so it's best you're limited to a wheelchair," he said.

"But I will be able to walk again?" I asked.

"Yes, once the radiotherapy stops then you should be able to walk," he said.

I sighed in relief.

"Your Mum and the rest of your family came over last night, I explained that you left the hospital for a certain period of time," he said.

"Was she mad?" I asked.

"Not as mad as Belle's Mum will be when she finds out she left as well," he said.

"Please don't tell her," I said.

"It's not me that's telling her," he said, nodding at Tyler.

"Why would Tyler do that?" I asked.

"No idea," he said.

The doctor left and Belle came in. Her eyes were all red and she had been crying.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"I'm glad you're okay, this wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for me, I'm so sorry," she said.

"It's okay, seriously it's fine," I said.

"It's not okay at all and Tyler's going to tell my Mum and I'm so scared," she said.

"What's your mum going to do?" I asked.

"She's going to make me stay in hospital till I eventually pass away and I don't want to die here," she said, sniffling.

"I'll talk to him, don't worry," I assured her.

She left the room, still in tears. I shook Tyler's shoulders and he jumped up. He rubbed his eyes and stretched before he yawned.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yeah but Belle won't be," I said.

"The 'beauty and the beast' girl?" He asked.

"If that's what you call her then yes," I said.

"She shouldn't have persuaded you to go out, it's her fault," he said.

"She never persuaded me," I said.

"Anyways, I wasn't actually going to tell her Mum, I just wanted her to feel just as scared as I felt when I thought I was going to lose you," he said.

And there was it. He was the guy that I had fallen for. The guy who was so unbelievably sweet and could make my heart swell up. I never wanted to lose Tyler and I certainly wasn't going to let go.

My smile radiated and I hugged onto him tightly.

"I have to get back now," he said.

"Okay, see you later," I replied.

A nurse came in and gave me a plate of soup for lunch but it looked awful. I managed to drink a few sips of the water though. Hospital food is probably the most horrendous food going.

The day went pretty quick. The nurse did a few tests and she removed all the tubes from me apart from the two I needed; the one coming from the IV bag and the other coming from the oxygen supply.

After that I slept for a short while before I was taken for radiotherapy. I had to go on a wheelchair which isn't all too bad because I'm a really lazy person and I didn't have the energy to walk.

Hannah and Belle paid me a visit later on. Lilly came with Ryan in the afternoon and she had brought my nail kit which was just a bag filled with all of my nail polish and other nail equipment.

When they left, I fell asleep. I was so exhausted and tired. Tomorrow was Belle's prom and I was adamant that she would get there looking absolutely gorgeous.

Belle's sister was going to bring her makeup over. She thinks Belle just wants to do her own makeup. Obviously we wouldn't tell her the real reason because she would be scared for Belle going to the prom so she'd probably tell her Mum.

Hannah was going to paint Belle's nail tomorrow with the nail polish Lilly had brought in for me. Whilst she was going to do this, I was going to do Belle's hair and makeup.

Every princess deserves to go to the ball. Whether they are sick or not.

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I am exhausted. College is a heck of a bore. I have made like two friends but we don't hang out or anything. I go out for lunch alone and in my free periods I'm alone. Arghhh my life is so sad.

Sometimes I ring Childline because I'm so lonely but they'll always listen to me rant ahaa