Who's Mind Is In My Mind? (complete)

Chapter 2

Even more unforgivable, than the way I had treated her, as a strigoi. Because at least then, there was an understandable reason for it. But the way I had treated her after my restoration, there was absolutely no excuse for that.

As a strigoi, I'd had no choice in how I treated her, no say in the matter. But how I'd treated her afterwards had been a choice, my choice. And I had made the wrong one. Which was so much more than obvious, by her now absence from court and my life and arms. Just as the way I had treated her before Spokane had been my choice. And I was sooo ashamed of myself, for the way I had treated her both times. I should have learned my lesson the first time, and because I didn't, she is gone from my life again. And God only knows where she is, how she is. If she is hurt or possibly even dead, though God knows that I pray each and every single day that she was alive and ok.

After that day in the church, I had expected her to still hang around trying to talk to me. So, when I didn't see her at all the next day, I knew that there was something wrong. When I still didn't see her for the next week and a half. I knew for sure, that there was something was very very wrong.

That was when I'd had to ask Lissa if she'd seen Roza. She had admitted, that she hadn't seen her in almost two weeks. When we compared notes, on the last time that either one of us had seen her. We both realized that something was indeed very wrong.

After I had gone back to my apartment that night, after having searched all of court with Lissa, for Roza.

I started thinking that it was very strange for Lissa not to realize that Roza was missing. I would have noticed it almost immediately if Ivan had disappeared. Just as he would have noticed if I had gone missing. And if Lissa had disappeared Roza would have also known right away.

It definitely wouldn't have taken any of the three of us a yeblya week and four days. And someone else bringing it to our attention before we noticed it. (fucking)

The next day Lissa and I had gone to Adrian. It goes without saying that he was understandably furious that it had taken us over a week to come to him. And for Lissa to even notice that Roza was missing at all.

*FLASHBACK*

"I cannot believe, that it has taken the two of you this long to figure out that my Little Dhampir is gone!!!!!"

"What do you mean Adrian? She can't have been gone for that long, and where did she go?"

"Can't have been gone that long?!!!" He questioningly sneered at her.

"She has been gone for almost two fucking weeks!! And the fact that you are just now noticing that, is truly pathetic princess. She is supposed to be your best friend, your sister. But have you ever, EVER really been a best friend and sister to her? Tell me, when was the last time that you really acted like her best friend?"

Adrian studied Lissa as he waited for an answer to his inquiry.

"Yea, it's been quite a while hasn't it. Like say... since before you were even brought back to the academy. Maybe even from before the day of the crash, after you brought her back to life. That was the day that you became only her moroi and charge, wasn't it? She has always given up everything for you, ever since she was a young child, even more so since the crash. She gave up her hopes, her dreams, her needs, her wants and her desires all for you. Did you ever even stop to ask her what she wanted to do with her life?!! Or did you, just take it for granted, that she wanted to be your guardian?!! Or a guardian at all. Did you ever stop to think that there was MAYBE something, or SOMEONE that she wanted for herself?"