Who's Mind Is In My Mind? (complete)

Chapter 35

She hadn't been hurt or upset about the things I had said to her because of her emotions. But because of mine, because of what was being hidden from me, and she was even angrier for that very same reason.

"Oh, my Roza. I really don't deserve you."

"It is I, that does not deserve you, Mitya. But I am far to selfish to ever let you get away from me again."

"God, what an amazing woman you are, lyubov' moya. You always have been, my Roza." (my love)

She laid her head on my shoulder.

"I love you Dimitri Alexander Roman Belikov, and I always will. Nothing in this or any other world will ever change that."

After hearing her words of love, I lay her back on the sand, and kissed the ever-loving hell out of her.

A little while later I asked her, "sooo, you have a half-brother huh?"

She laughed.

"Yes, and we have grown very close since I left court. I even sent for him to join me when we went to Panama. We had a great time, and lots of fun."

"I am glad that you finally have that dorogoy moya." (my darling)

"Thank you. Do you have any other questions about anything that you have found out about me?"

I didn't quite know how to ask this question, but I wanted nothing between us but love, respect, loyalty and trust. So, I knew that I had to ask.

I sighed.

"Did you really think that I had slept with Lissa?"

She sighed herself.

"Until I noticed the bond, I thought that it might be a possibility. The way that the two of you were acting, always wanting to be alone together, never wanting me around. All the things that she said and did to keep us apart, she had started to remind me of Tasha. So, as I said, before I noticed the bond, I thought that it might be a possibility."

"But even when you were in Switzerland you were questioning it."

"Not really, it just ran through my mind that night. How much it had hurt to think that you might have."

"Detka, I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you, and I never want you to hurt like that ever again. I am sorry that the way that we behaved made you think that was even a remote possibility." (baby)

"It's fine, I understand now, that a lot of those thoughts were darkness induced. And part of the way that Lissa was acting was because Tasha had managed to compel her. Since she so fragile and frail in that department, she is very susceptible to being compelled. That's probably why Tasha's shitty compulsion worked on her. And just one of the reasons that Tatiana wants someone else, someone who is very strong minded as queen. Someone who cannot be compelled."

"I promise you Roza, again on the lives of my family. That I have been with no other woman but you since the very first time that I laid eyes on you. And again, I am so sorry that we made you feel and think that that was even a remote possibility."

"I understand, now, that being around me was painful to you. And I wish that you would have explained that to me, or even gotten Lissa to. But, that is all in the past, so let's just leave it there. And have a fresh start."

"All right, but if there is ever anything that you want to talk about, I am here for you."

"I know you are, thank you."

"Can I ask you another question?"

"Sure."

"This isn't the question I wanted to ask, but can you keep Lissa from reading things from your mind?"