Who's Mind Is In My Mind? (complete)

Chapter 5

"No. But I still staked him."

"Yes you staked him, and we all appreciate that, especially Rose. But what happened afterwards? Did she get her soul mate back? No, instead he turned to you. Did he ever give her the credit that she deserved for all the hell that she went through for him? No, he gave it all to you, just like most of our world has. Did he thank her for almost dying, only God knows how many times to bring him back? No, he doesn't even know about any of that. Because he has been stuck so far up YOUR ass, that Rosie couldn't even talk to him. Does he know about all the times that you cussed her out, threatened to have her reassigned to another country, threatened to have her title revoked, or have her banished from our society all together just to keep them apart? I seriously doubt it. Does he know,that she almost jumped off that bridge after he fell? That the only reason that she is  even still alive is because of Sydney and Oksana? No, he doesn't know about any of that either. And why doesn't he know about any of that? Tell me Liss, why doesn't he know about any of that?!!"

I was in total and complete shock as we all waited for the Princess to answer Eddie's questions, but she never did.

"Yea, that's what I thought. Please, please, please defend yourself. Tell me why, why my little sister has disappeared. Tell us all,why you threw away an almost fifteen year friendship in the blink of an eye. Because we are all just dying to know the answer to that question. Please tell me why my little sister is out there in the world  all ALONE. Broken, miserable and hurt with her heart and soul in shambles. Please for the love of all that is holy, answer my questions!! Because I REALLY need to know!!"

This was all new information to me. I knew that Lissa had told Roza to stay away from me, because I had asked her to. But I did not know that she had gone to those extremes. Slapping my Roza, cussing her out, just being all around vicious to the woman that I love with all my heart and soul was inexcusable to me.

"But there is one thing that you did do. And that is that you tried to compel her to get her not to go after him at all. You tried to compel your sister to just let the love of her life go and forget all about him. Would she have done that to you? Or would she have gone after Christian herself, to keep you from being in pain? Would she have let you live your life worrying about him and what he could possibly be doing? No, she would never have done those things to you. She has always done anything and everything that you needed whether you realized it or not. Even if it was driving her insane and killing her."

Now I was yeblya floored. I never would have expected Lissa to compel my Roza, and especially not just to get her to do what she wanted her to. (fucking)

And then for Lissa to threaten to have her reassigned to another country, have her title revoked or have her banished from our society at all was all unforgiveable and disgusting. Finding out all of this information reminded me of the way I had felt towards Lissa that night in the cabin.

No one said anything for a while as we all watched Lissa. So I spoke up, "if there was no letter for me, then why am I here?"

"Because Rose's last request as a guardian. Was that her guardian title be transferred to you, and that you become the princess's full-time guardian. She said that you have made a vow to the princess. So being at her beck and call, twenty-four hours a day seven days a week 365 days a year, wouldn't be a problem for you. That you would be thrilled to, as she put it, give up anything and  ANYONE to protect your  PRECIOUS PRINCESS SAVIOUR." Wow, he sounded like he didn't like that  AT ALL.

And again, she hadn't been wrong. I had tried to give her up over and over and over again just to protect Lissa. Just to do what I thought was my duty and obey the RULES. I was such a yeblya idiot for ever even once trying to do that, much less trying to do it repeatedly.  (fucking)