Who's Mind Is In My Mind? (complete)

Chapter 14

"Yes, that is an very good way to describe it; desperately."

She smiled that man eater smile of hers which quickly turned into a teasing smile just before she bit her bottom lip. Damn it! She knew what that did to me.

I quickly swooped in and claimed her lips as my own. This kiss started out sweet and loving but quickly became passionate, hungry and frenzied.

After we pulled back and caught our breath I said, "Roza, I am so sorry baby. When I said what I said to you in the church, I was so lost. I honestly couldn't feel any positive emotions not for anyone, not my family, not you, no one. If I had known that my emotions were just being hidden and suppressed from me I would never in a million years have said that to you. But I just couldn't stand the thought of you waiting around, dying inside a little more every day. Waiting for something, that I didn't think would ever happen. I am so sorry baby. Please, my Roza, please forgive me."

I begged her for her forgiveness. Hoping and praying that she would grant it to me. As tears ran down my face I fell to my knees and wrapped my arms around her waist then I lay my head against her stomach.

"Please Roza, please forgive me."

She ran her fingers through my hair, before wiping my tears away. Then she said the two words, that I have always dreamed of hearing her say, "I do."

Closing my eyes, I could hear her words echo in my mind over and over again. Maybe, someday, I would hear them again only in a different context.

Opening my eyes I watched as her eyes caressed every inch of my face with a smile on her luscious lips. She looked as though she was trying to commit everything about me to memory.

"I have never loved anyone, the way that I love you Mitya. I would do anything for you..." She looked deeply into my eyes and said, "...I would die for you Comrade."

I knew that she was serious when she spoke those words just as I was when I answered. "As I would for you my very own avenging angel. I love you so much milaya moya. So much that it hurts my heart sometimes."

She smiled, and with tears rolling down her own face. She pulled me back to my feet.

Then she leaned in and pressed a kiss to my heart, "I know that feeling my love."

"Please, no matter what I say or do, please don't ever leave me again Roza. Please, promise me that, my love."

With one of her hands on my cheek, and the other over my heart, she said, "I will make you that promise, if you promise, to never let me go."

"I promise my Roza, I promise." I replied, while tightening my arms around her. And lifting her slightly off the ground.

I held her, as if my very life and sanity depended on it. Because I knew, without a shadow of a doubt I knew that they did. My everything depended on her.

"So do I, Mitya. So. Do. I." She promised, through the tears that slipped down her cheeks unchecked.

"Please, don't cry, my darling."

"I can't help it, I love you so much. I never knew that love like this even existed in real life. As far as I knew a love like ours was only in movies books and fairytales. I always thought that romantic love was a fairytale... a dream. But YOU are my dream come true, my prince charming." She gave a small happy sob.

"When you are not with me... it hurts soo much. It's like dying little deaths, every minute of the day." She finished.

"You never have to worry about that ever again. I will never allow anyone or anything, to separate us, EVER AGAIN my love. EVER."