Who's Mind Is In My Mind? (complete)

Chapter 3

"Well good. At least you know that you've fucked up in a massively colossal way. Now, what are you going to do about it?"

"What can I do Adrian, she's gone?"

"Just because she's gone now, does not mean that she won't come back someday. So, if and when she does come back what are you going to do?"

"Get on my yeblya knees and beg if that's what it takes to get my Roza back!! I will do anything no matter what that is!" (fucking)

He started clapping, "brav-fucking-o. Finally you have come to your senses. A woman like Rose doesn't come along but once in a man's lifetime, if you're very fucking lucky. And my best friend deserves a man who is willing to kill, die and crawl through pits of hell fire for her. Are you willing to do all of that and more for her?"

I didn't take a second to answer, "yes."

"Good for you, it's about fucking time."

A few minutes later Lissa and I left Adrian's apartment.

*END FLASHBACK*

That night I had another dream about that woman. Now that my Roza was gone they were all that were helping me to maintain my sanity.

*DREAM*

Today I was in Dubai visiting Dolphin Bay. I sat and watched the dolphin show then I got changed into a wet suit and went to swim with the dolphins.

This is something that I had always wanted to do, I felt so free when I was outdoors. Like the pain that my heart and soul were going through couldn't touch me anymore. But I knew that wasn't true, the pain always seemed to seep through.

After leaving Dolphin Bay I made my way to the Dubai Aquarium and Underwater Zoo. Where I spent hours gazing at the animals. Thankfully they were in tanks, because usually animals didn't like me.

Which was why the dolphins at Dolphin Bay had been so strange. They all seemed to love me. Maybe they just felt my sadness and just wanted to cheer me up, and if  that was so, they had succeeded at least for a short amount of time.

After my time at the aquarium I went on a tour of the fountains of Dubai. Where I decided that I would have lunch at the top Burj Khalifa.

While in Dubai I also took a hot air balloon tour, I went to some clubs and did some more sightseeing.

Dubai is a beautiful city, and I hope that I can come back here someday. But now it is time to leave, for the next leg of my journey.

*END OF DREAM*

*ONE MONTH LATER*

It was the start to another day, another lonely day without my Roza. Which was my own fault. When I told her that atrocious lie I had no idea that she would really believe it and leave court.

I thought that she would understand that I just needed time and space,  God I was really starting two hate those two yeblya words, to sort out my feelings. But apparently she didn't take it that way. Apparently she took my words at face value. (fucking)

I know that with my words and actions that I have finally pushed her too far, I had finally broken my Roza. After all the chances that she had given and re-given me, I had finally broken her. I saw that as soon as those words had left my mouth, but by then it was already too late to take them back.

I didn't even have the right to call her my Roza anymore, because I had lost all of those rights when I broke her soul and spirit.

I had no idea when I was telling her that my love had faded that I was lying. I really and truly thought that being a strigoi had destroyed all of my positive emotions.