Let's dance

I won't leave you

When Alec saw the sadness in Magnus eyes he was so angry about himself and when Magnus yelled at him he was even angrier. He was angry at HIM for ruining everything again and angry at himself that he couldn't be normal so he brusted out. "I WAS RAPPED! OKAY. NOW YOU CAN LAUGH ABOUT ME AND LEAVE ME BECAUSE I'M DIRTY AND USED!" Alec yelled and couldn't believe how good it actually felt to just let it out not hiding anything anymore. "I'm a guy who was rapped and now I'm scared...scared to fall again for someone or even touch someone. I'm used and broken...you can laugh or just leave." Alec continued and he wasn't yelling anymore but crying. Magnus didn't know what to say or do it was like he was frozen on his spot and he just felt tears burning in his eyes. How could someone do that? How could someone hurt Alec like that? A loud bang brought Magnus back to reality and the bang was the door that Alec slammed closed. It just was too much for Alec and he just needed to get out of this as fast as he could. Alec ran to the room slamming the door close and sliding down to the ground. He pulled his knees to his chest and sobbed in his knees. Now it was out and Alec was sure Magnus wouldn't want him anymore. The pain Alec felt in his chest made the relieve about telling someone vanish and the pain became almost unbareable. Magnus had to pull himself together still shocked he walked to the door and heard the sobs from Alec. Magnus knew something was strange about Alec but this was terrible and now Magnus understood why Alec acted like this. Bear was also in front of the door whimpering and scratching at the door but Alec didn't reacted. Magnus took a deep breath and knocked lightly on the door. "Alexander...please open the door." Magnus said softly afraid his voice would break but he felt so bad that Alec thought Magnus would leave him now. His feelings for Alec didn't change and for Magnus nothing could change them. It broke Magnus heart to hear how Alec felt but he wanted to help him...he didn't care how broken Alec was. "Just go away...you don't need to make it harder." Alec sobbed and Magnus leaned his forehead against the door closing his eyes. Magnus couldn't fight the few tears which were escaping his eyes and rolling down his cheeks. "Alexander, I won't leave you...just open the door...please." Magnus begged and felt so stupid for crying even he should be strong now. "I...I want to help you...I want to be with you." Magnus whispered quietly and Alec felt his heart beating more steady again. The sobs slowed down and he could breath again. He didn't know what it was but he just knew Magnus meant every single word. Alec got up from the ground and slowly opened the door meeting teary brown eyes. "I want to help you." Magnus mumbled and losing himself in the sadness the hazel eyes in front of him held. Alec didn't answer and just wrapped his arms around Magnus hugging him tightly. Magnus let out a relieved breath and hugged Alec back letting the man sobbing in his shoulder. "I'm here." Magnus said softly and rubbed Alecs back trying to comfort him as much as he could. Right now Alec didn't mind  being so close to Magnus...in fact he needed that comfort right now and Magnus gave him it. "I...I just..." Alec tried to talk but his voice broke and he only cried more. Magnus hugged Alec tighter now really fighting the urge to cry too because it hurt. It hurt to see Alec like that and it hurt that he didn't know what to do to make Alec feel better. "Don't talk...just let it out." Magnus answered and felt Alecs hot tears running down his back through the fabric of his shirt. "It will be okay...I promise you." Magnus said with a soft voice and caressed Alecs back gentely. Alec calmed down under Magnus touches and the sobs turned into heartbreaking hiccups. Magnus pulled slowly back and looked at Alec with a weak smile before he reached with his hands out to cup Alecs face with them. Alec flinched at first but then he closed his eyes relaxing in the touch and a few more tears escaped his eyes."Alexander, I am so sorry that you have to go through this but I won't leave you. I like you and this won't change my mind. You aren't dirty and you aren't used. You are strong...and I am so glad that you told me even under that conditions but now you know I still want you." Magnus said softly and whipped Alecs tears with his thumb away. Alec didn't know how to feel right now but a part of him was happy. A part of him was relieved that Magnus didn't leave him and a part of him believed every single word of Magnus which was enough to push the worst thoughts away for now. "Let me be there for you." Magnus added after he just stayed quiet for a few seconds giving Alec the time to let his words sink in. "Thank you." Alec whispered and even it was barely a whisper Magnus heard it and smiled softly. Alec opened his eyes slowly and Magnus smile made him feel better. "Why don't we skip training for today and I cook something for us?" Magnus asked with a warm smile not taking his hands away from Alecs cheek but Alec didn't feel bothered anyway. "Mum asked if you want to join us for dinner...she will be mad if we eat now." Alec sniffed and Magnus cracked a smile standing on his tip toes to press a light kiss on Alecs temple. Alecs heart skipped a beat when Magnus lips touched his skin and he hummed a little. "Then let's go to your place and maybe we can talk a little...how does that sound?" Magnus asked pulling back and his hands fall from Alecs cheeks to his shoulders. "Yeah...that sounds fine." Alec answered not sniffing anymore and the tears stopped to fall but he felt exhausted. "Should I drive...I will send someone to pick up my car." Magnus suggested and Alec nodded keeping his head down still feeling the self doubts in him. "Alexander, please don't ever think that I will leave you because of this...I like you I will say it over and over again." Magnus said softly seeing how Alec was fighting with himself. Alec only nodded and they got in Alecs car...//tbc I hope you like emotional and also cute chapters.❤😔❤😔