Pistanthrophobia (noun): Fear of trusting people due to past experience and relationships gone wrong.
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Jennie~
I just got home from the grocery store and immediately noticed a pair of heels by the door. Heels that aren't mine.
I went upstairs and put my ear against the door to Hyunjin's room. As expected, I heard his voice... and Nayeon's. The sound suddenly stopped, and I went closer-
"Shoot!" I accidentally screamed since Hyunjin opened the door, resulting me to slip.
"What were you doing there?" Nayeon asked with her arms crossed. Her true colours are finally revealing... she's a pretty shitty person.
"What are you doing in my house?" I asked her back. She looked at me in disbelief, before grasping onto Hyunjin's arm.
"Jennie... you're fine with this? Right?" He stood away from me before asking.
The truth is, I'm not fine.
Even though I'm pretending to be strong, I can never be fine. Do you want me to congratulate you on getting a mistress? You're the worst, Hyunjin. As a husband and a father. As a person.
"So you want me to encourage your relationship?" I stared them down in disbelief. "As long as we're not divorced, I don't want you here. Ever."
"You're such a bitch." Nayeon rolled her eyes.
"Huh? Were you talking to yourself?" I was about to slap her, but Hyunjin immediately stopped me from doing so- which is good, because violence is never the answer.
"Let's talk." She raised her eyebrows at me. I would have never thought that she could be like this; I trusted her way too much.
"Fine." I looked at Hyunjin, motioning him to leave. He sighed before heading out the door, to who knows where.
"You get on my nerves, Jennie. If you weren't blocking my damn way..." Nayeon stood closer to me. "But oh well, he doesn't love you. He has a wife at home, but guess who he always goes to? Me."
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Hyunjin~
I wonder what they're talking about right now? I'm actually quite concerned that Nayeon might do something to her... our baby.
I decided to hang out at Sky and Felix's place for a bit, just to kill time.
"What's up?" Felix and Sky cuddled on their couch as they asked me.
"She found out about me and Nayeon, for a while now actually. We've already submitted our documents... we're splitting up."
"She never told me about this..." Sky rose up from her seat and was about to go out the door, but Felix stopped her. "Jennie needs you- she doesn't deserve to be treated this way! Did you even love her at all?"
"Of course I loved her."
Before Nayeon came, I loved Jennie so much... but she was always busy. Jennie always talked about our future, and how she needed to study hard to become very successful.
She never had time for me, so I looked for someone else.
All I wanted was her time, her attention. I didn't want money, I didn't care if she was going to become successful or not... I just wanted her.
Seems like I wanted too much.
"How did she find out?" Felix suddenly asked. He couldn't even look me in the eye.
"We were in Jeju, Nayeon and I went to go see the waterfalls. She suddenly came and saw us together..." They next things that happened were all blurry in my head. I didn't want to remember what I made her feel that day.
"How did she hide all this?" Sky seems really angry but very intrigued at the same time.
"Jennie is really good at hiding her feelings. She didn't want to ruin the trip for you two, especially since Felix was proposing soon."
"And you let her feel like shit when we were there? You're the worst husband- no. Worst person I've ever known," Sky glared at me. "Thank goodness you weren't Felix, or else I would have dumped your ass in a snap."
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Jennie~
Ring*
"Eomma, how are you?" I suddenly smiled because it's been a while since we've talked. My mother always makes me feel better.
"Jennie..." Her voice started to crack up. My mom never cries. I anticipated what she was about to say next. "I saw your dad with another woman. They have two children together."
My heart dropped and I immediately broke in tears. My father. My role model- how could he do this to mom, who did nothing but to love him? How could he?
Why does it always seem like the ones closest to me, are also the same individuals who end up betraying me?
I'm beginning to wonder if love and trust are even real.
