Anagapesis (noun): No longer feeling any affection for someone you once loved.
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Hyunjin~
"Let's break up." I avoided Nayeon's eyes because I didn't want to be weak. I can't be lured by her again... I need to end this stupid relationship, because it won't get me anywhere good.
"Is it because of her? Hyunjin, you don't love her anymore- you love me! Remember, I made you feel things... things that you've never experienced with her!" Nayeon cried while clinging onto my waist.
"Intimacy. Pleasure. That was about it... that was the only thing I liked about you," I lied- I did love her too. Of course I still do. "I don't need you anymore."
"Did that psycho wife of yours, brainwash you again? Don't let her get to you- stop lying to yourself! You don't love her!" She started to throw a fit.
"You're right, I should stop lying to myself..." I paused before going out the door. "I love Jennie, not you."
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Jennie~
Hyunjin came home with a very restless, downcast, yet relieved expression on his face. I decided not to say anything because he might just get angry with me.
"Jennie... come here." I was about to silently walk away, but he caught me.
"Hmm?" I tiptoed towards him, and he immediately pulled me down onto the couch- beside him.
"I'm tired... let's rest?" Hyunjin laid his head down onto my shoulders.
"Okay. Let's go upstairs?" I suggested but he started shaking his head.
"No, it's fine. Let's just stay here- like this..." He mumbled. "I broke up with Nayeon. For good."
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Hyunjin~
"Let's go somewhere nice. Where would you like to go?" I asked Jennie once she woke up.
"Really? You're taking me somewhere?" Her face shows that she's very surprised. "Should we do yoga?"
"Yoga?!" My eyes shot up.
"I saw this ad in the subway where they do prenatal yoga. I've been wanting to try that out for quite a while now... but we don't have to go, if you don't want to."
"I guess we're doing yoga today." I smiled and helped her up.
Jennie had this big smile on her face- the kind that I haven't seen in a while. It was quite fulfilling to see her this happy.
After I broke up with Nayeon, it felt as if a weight has been removed from my chest. Breaking up with her is the best choice I have ever made. Now, I can focus on my wife whole-heartedly.
"Let me put on your shoes for you." I suggested, so that she didn't have to kneel down.
"Hyunjin..." She uttered.
"Hmm?"
"Thank you."
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Jennie~
Watching Hyunjin stumble and fall on his face during yoga, felt so satisfying. I may have laughed too many times at him and annoyed the other moms.
"That was really hard, I really though it would be easy... boy was I wrong," Hyunjin panted. "You made it look like it was nothing."
"Yoga isn't as hard as carrying a child in your belly. That's why yoga was easy so for me." I tried explaining to him.
"I'm sorry that you went through a harder time than others... I promise to take care of you and Eunha," He took my hands and put it in his. "Let's stay together from now on."
"Hyunjin, it's not as easy as you think... I'd still rather split up with you, because I'm not sure if what we have right now is permanent. Whatever you're feeling right now, it's probably all just infatuation. You don't love me... you just feel guilty."
"You can't understand what I feel, unless you're me. How could you possibly assume?" His eyes started to water as he desperately looked at me. "Jennie, I love you. I really do."
"But you just broke up with Nayeon. How could I be so sure that you won't ever go back to her again? I saw it in your eyes- you really did love her... you never looked at me that way. Not now, not even three years ago-"
Hyunjin cut me off with a soft, yet powerful kiss- making me surprised by his sudden action... but I didn't feel anything.
Don't be deceived, Jennie.
You're way smarter than this, you're better on your own. Hyunjin doesn't matter- not anymore.
"I'm sorry Hyunjin... but I don't love you anymore. Please, stop leading me on- I already gave up on us. So did you."
"Jennie, don't say that-"
"Please!" I screamed since I couldn't hold it in anymore. The tears came flowing out of my eyes. "You're not any different from my father... cheating eventually becomes a habit."
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Song: BTS (방탄소년단) — Trivia: Seesaw (This song is basically about a boring relationship, where all they do is try to balance things out + just want to end things already)
