Solitude (noun): A state of seclusion or isolation.
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Hyunjin~
Jennie hasn't been talking to me for the past few days. She also hasn't been going to school, because her body's constantly in pain.
I make her breakfast every morning before I leave, also leaving a sticky note on the very top of the lid- reminding her to take care, and other things that I couldn't tell her face-to-face.
I woke up earlier than usual and decided to make her a big meal since our baby's getting bigger, and so does her appetite. I'm hoping for a healthy child.
Not gonna lie, my cooking has gotten so much better. Cooking each meal, everyday is no joke but it's quite fulfilling. I feel happy whenever I see that Jennie's been eating everything on her plate.
After laying down the dishes onto the table, I pulled out a sticky note and started writing.
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Jennie~
I miss you so much. I really want to hold you and Eunha soon.
I took the sticky note and put it inside a box where I also kept the other ones.
It's been hard not talking to Hyunjin for a while, but it's not any different from before. The only weird thing is that he actually cares. He's making the effort to cook me meals everyday, and I really do appreciate that.
The doorbell suddenly rang, so I went over to go get it. Hyunjin's supposed to be in class right now- did he forget something?
"Good morning!" Minho greeted me with a positive attitude.
"Hey... what are you doing here? Hyunjin's not home." I curiously asked while letting him in.
"I came here for you," He then handed me something. "Is this okay?"
I opened the box and inside contained a big chocolate cake, frosted with whipped buttercream icing.
"Oh my gosh. I love it!" I squealed in excitement. We walked over to the dining table and I gave him some food that Hyunjin cooked.
"So, how are you?" Minho asked while taking in a big spoonful of rice.
"I'm taking a leave from school until I give birth. I get unexpected pain all the time, so it's better for me to stay home." I pouted.
"Yeah, I agree- university might stress you out too," I could tell that he wanted to say something, but didn't know if he should. "About Hyunjin... has he been good to you?
"He takes really good care of me, and he apparently also broke up with Nayeon... but I still can't seem to trust him. These past few days, I haven't been talking to Hyunjin. I want to- but I just don't know how."
"Hyunjin's a nice guy. There must be a reason why he did what he did before, but it's nice to hear that he's actually trying to make up for it. I think it's great that he's been giving you some space- if he wasn't, he would have probably already talked to you by now."
Minho's right. Hyunjin's respecting my decisions by giving me space and time.
"I told him that I gave up on us, and that I didn't love him anymore... of course I still do." I let out a long sigh.
"You're just afraid. I would be too, if I was you. You have two options. Tell him what you really feel, or just forget about him and move on. It's not simple, I know it's hard- but you have to narrow it down to one."
"I don't think I could ever get back with him, after what we've been through. It won't be so hard to get over him, right? The first step into moving on is to find someone new. However, no one would be dumb enough to like me... I'm pregnant and would just be a hassle."
"Your first step is here, right in front of you. That person isn't dumb... that person just really likes you."
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Hyunjin~
As I was walking home, I noticed Minho coming out of my house. Jennie accompanied him and sent him off with a big hug.
"Why was Minho hyung here?" I asked Jennie once I got home. She was quite surprised that I said something.
"He brought me some cake..." She pointed at the table.
"Oh. That's very nice of him to do," I handed her the styrofoam filled with chow mein. "I bought you some food on the way home."
"Thanks. Do you want some?" Jennie picked some noodles up with her chopsticks.
"I already ate..." I lied, I actually haven't. I just want her to eat well. "How long was he here for?"
"A couple of hours. We just talked." She avoided my gaze.
"Hours?!" I started blinking twice as fast. What did they talk about? I can't even talk to my own wife for fifteen minutes!
"I like Minho... I enjoy talking to him, and he always knows what to say. You'd be okay if we liked each other, right? I mean, we're only married by paper. In a few months, that thing won't even be there anymore."
"Why are you doing this to me?" My voice started to shake.
"You want me to be happy, right? The only feeling I get whenever I'm with you, is anxiety. Being with you feels like I'm being trapped at the very bottom of the sea... it's suffocating."
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Oohh I just realized that this chapter's about 200 words longer that the usual updates ehehe
