Hiraeth (noun): A homesickness for a home you can't return to, or that never was.
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Jennie~
My eyes started to slightly open, but my head is throbbing with so much pain. Moving my body felt like a chore- every movement felt like hell.
"Hun, you're awake." I suddenly noticed Hyunjin sitting beside my bed once the blurriness in my eyes finally vanished.
"How long was I unconscious for?" I looked around the hospital room. It's like my childhood allover again...
"Four days," He sighed. My sight suddenly traveled down onto my belly. "Don't worry- she's fine."
"She?" My eyes grew wide.
"Yup! When the doctors checked to see if the baby's okay, they also found out that it's a girl..." Hyunjin looked at my baby bump and sweetly smiled. "Our baby girl."
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Hyunjin~
"Our baby girl." I finished my sentence and Jennie stared at me in disbelief.
I fucked up again.
The audacity to call it mine after what I've done- what even was my contribution as a father to our child? As a husband to her? Nothing. The only thing I did was give her extra shit that she didn't deserve.
"After I give birth to Eunha and our divorce papers get finalized, I'll take her to New Zealand with me. We'll live there, and you wouldn't have to worry about me anymore."
"No, let's take care of her together. Please- let me be a father to her. A husband to you... a good husband." I tried to hold her hand, but she quickly pushed it away.
"I don't know what you and Nayeon are planning to do... but I'm definitely not giving in anymore. I'll raise my own child myself- I was doing okay even without you."
"I'm breaking up with Nayeon. Just me and you- no; Me, you and Eunha."
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Jennie~
I don't trust Hyunjin.
I don't know if I'm just being paranoid, but after all that had happened... I can't trust anyone anymore. To think that the guy who wanted me gone- literally days ago, suddenly wants me back in a snap? It's clearly impossible.
What would he get from doing this?
Hyunjin's literally the luckiest guy in the planet. He receives education and money from his parents- meaning that his life is technically set already, he has a girlfriend that he really loves, an amazing family and friends. What more could he ask for? What does he want from me?
My child. My last treasure.
Please don't take her away from me.
"Do you drink often?" The psychologist asked me. Apparently I have to take sessions with her, after what happened.
"No. My drinking tolerance is very bad..." I explained to her. "I only drank once during my whole pregnancy."
"Why did you drink that day, even though you knew that it could possibly harm the child?"
"I honestly wasn't thinking of the consequences. I had things going on with my family, and I also haven't properly slept in a while. I'm exhausted. I thought that drinking could possibly knock me out..." It sounds so stupid, now that I say it out loud.
"You weren't intentionally trying to get yourself killed?"
"I promise, I wasn't."
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Hyunjin~
"Don't strain yourself too much. Let me help you," I offered Jennie while she tried walking up the stairs. "Slowly... you might get dizzy again."
"I can do it myself." She opposed but almost slipped right after.
"Be careful. I'm not gonna let you do things alone- not until you're fully recovered," I insisted. "You must be tired now. It's getting very late."
"Even if I do try to rest... it's really hard for me to. I usually just close my eyes and pretend to sleep, in hope for it to come true."
"Then I'll stay with you. Let's not sleep then; let's pull an all-nighter. Together." I opened the door to Jennie's bedroom and helped her lay down onto the bed.
"I pull all-nighters on a daily basis," She bragged, a bit too proud of herself. "Let's see how long it will take you."
"You'll lose before me." I laid beside her, and pulled her into my arms.
"Stop playing with my feelings..." She mumbled against my chest. "You're such an asshole."
"I know... and I'm truly sorry for being like that. I'll stay beside you always, from this day on. Don't worry about anything anymore."
I'm scared to lose you again.
I'll stay here, right beside you. You don't have to be alone anymore.
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