Lacuna (noun): A blank space. A missing part.
Jennie~
"What happened to your jaw?" Sky asked while we: Sky, Nayeon and I, walked down the corridor on our way to lunch. "Ahh, did Hyunjin leave you love marks?"
"Oh, sure..." I didn't know what to say.
"Hey, let's go somewhere else that isn't the cafeteria. I feel like you're bottling things up." Nayeon lightly grabbed my wrist and all three of us ran to the nearest café.
"Can you tell Felix not to come? I don't think he'd be pleased if he found out..." Sky shut me off by nodding, sensing that she understands. We each got hot chocolate and cake.
"What's up? Spill the beans." Nayeon teased.
"My eggs have been fertilized." I sipped my hot cocoa, and Sky's mouth just hanged open. Nayeon already knows, so she's just nodding.
"And?" Nayeon raised an eyebrow.
"He did this. Hyunjin doesn't believe that he's the father- he pushed me last night and squeezed my jaw this morning... he said that he doesn't love me, and that he never did."
"That son-of-a-bitch! He deserves to rot in hell-"
"Calm down, Sky." Nayeon patted her back.
"Who the fuck is his side hoe? I swear, I've been noticing that attitude of his for quite a while. Don't tell me you're staying with him?"
"I can't leave him."
"Why not? You can always get a divorce." Nayeon brought up, even though that topic is really sensitive to her.
"He's the father of my child. I can't just leave him... another reason is that I like him so much."
"But he's hurting you. How worse can he get? We don't even know." Sky sat beside me and tried giving me comfort.
"If I leave, where would I go? I can't tell my parents about this- they'd be so heartbroken." I can't ever do that to them.
"You could stay at my place," Sky added. "Felix would be fine with it."
"No, I don't want to be such a hassle. I'll just avoid him and try to give birth fast- if he's still the same by then, I'll sure leave."
"I don't trust him, Jennie. I agree with Sky; you really don't know what he's capable of." Nayeon replied.
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Hyunjin~
"Right there..." Nayeon moaned as I sucked her collarbone.
I love this girl so much.
"I wish I married you instead." I went back up and kissed her lips.
"You'd leave your own child just for me?" She opened her big eyes and stared at mine.
"I don't have a child. That isn't mine."
"It is... Hyunjin... I don't think this is right anymore. I mean, you're married to her- this is so wrong." Wow, she finally came to her senses.
"Hey," I cupped her face and started caressing her cheeks. "We're only married by paper. That child; I don't care about it. My heart belongs to you- only you. So stop thinking about that, okay?"
"Gosh, I love you so damn much." She leaned in and kissed my lips.
"I'll force her to leave me, then we can get married."
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Jennie~
"Let's split up." Hyunjin suddenly brought up during dinner.
"What does that mean?" I already know what it means, but I just don't want to believe it...
"Divorce. Let's do that."
It seems as if the whole world came crashing down. I don't know what's worse- when he called me a whore or this. His words are just too much.
"I'm not doing that." I looked away and continued eating my food.
"Fine- then I'll make your life a living hell." Hyunjin hit the table and I winced.
"Aren't you already doing that?" I looked down and fiddled with my fingers. "If I didn't get pregnant, would you still treat me like before?"
"I..." he paused for a bit, and the expression on his face suddenly turned all soft. "Probably."
"Should I get rid of it then?"
"Yeah, you should."
"I knew it. You're really evil. It's a damn human being, for goodness sake." I stood up and kicked the chair in before going upstairs, locking myself up inside the room.
I looked at myself in the mirror, and noticed the little baby bump that's starting to form. No way am I getting rid of this- it's my child. So what if it doesn't have a dad? It has me. That's all that matters.
"I won't leave you like he did." I put my hand over my stomach, and smiled at the warm feeling.
I'm fine with being alone.
Again.
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It's only the 2nd day of school and I already got a shit ton of homework... smh...
Song: Day6 (데이식스) — I Need Somebody (누군가 필요해)
(PS. THERE WILL MOST LIKELY BE A LOT OF DAY6 SONGS IN THIS STORY LMAO)
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Fiksi Penggemar❝Are you tired of loving me?❞ I close my eyes and count the stars, but I still can't sleep. © DIORTYUN {Illegirl Sequel} Started: Aug 24, 2018 Completed: Nov 14, 2018 ____________________________ Stray Kids (스트레이 키즈) - Hwang Hyunjin Fan Fiction