Only For You

Chapter 16

Harry

Tonight was another night in the studio. Thankfully we were staying there to record a couple songs and then we were leaving. I was honestly getting tired being in the studio. It was so boring. Whenever it was everyone else's turn on their solo I would just go on my phone and message Samantha, but I didn't do that. 

After a couple songs, we all decided to leave and get some extra sleep. We all headed out to the car and drove away from the studio. Zayn was driving and focusing on the road. When we got to our apartment, we headed to our room. Everyone scattered when we were in our apartment. I stayed in the same clothes. I grabbed a beer and sat down watching TV. Liam entered in some pajama bottoms. "What's up with you?" Liam asked heading towards the kitchen. He grabbed something and came back. I took a sip of my beer and looked at Liam. He opened his beer and stood there waiting for me to reply. "What?" I asked him. "I'm sorry I'm slow tonight." Liam chuckled as he sat down on the love seat. He took a sip of his beer then said, "I asked what's wrong with you?" I looked over at him and said, "I don't know. I'm not feeling the best." Liam cocked his head and said, "What do you mean by that? Emotionally? Physically?" I shrugged and took another sip of my beer.

"When was the last time you talked to Samantha?" I thought back to when I went to her house, which that was a couple weeks ago from now. "Like the last time I went to her house," I answered. Liam nodded and I said, "And that was a couple weeks ago." Liam shook his head and said, "We need to do something for you Harry. All you're doing is just sitting in numbness." I didn't answer him. I took a long sip of my beer then looked at him. "Hey, I know a guy who is having a party a couple weeks from now. Would you want to go?" I sipped my beer then said, "To do what? Perform?" Liam laughed and said, "No. We would be there to party." I shrugged, didn't like the idea of getting wasted at someone else's house while I can do it at mine. "Harry. I think you'll need this," Liam said looking serious. I shook my head disagreeing with Liam. "There will be girls there!" Liam said trying to cheer me up. I looked over at him and said, "What if I am into guys?" Liam laughed and said, "There will be guys there too!" I sighed and agreed. Liam smiled at me and said, "Yes. Now that is what I'm talking about." Liam got up and left the room. 

I sat there on the couch all by myself. It had been a couple hours and I knew the rest of the boys were in bed. I decided to finish my fourth beer and got off the couch. I was a little dizzy, but I walked to my room. I changed my clothes into only my boxers and went to bed. 

I kept moving around and I couldn't get comfortable. I also kept thinking about Sam and wondering how she was doing. She probably didn't even care about me. I knew our relationship was dying. I knew I needed to change something, but I couldn't quite figure out what it was. Did I need to change? Did Samantha need to change?

I began thinking about everything and asked myself if I screwed up already. I was such a mess. I hated myself for what I did to Samantha. I never knew we would be like this in a couple weeks ago. Suddenly my eyes were blurry and I couldn't see. I wiped my tears away and closed my eyes. I was so tired of everything. I just wanted to leave. 

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here is chapter 16

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