Only For You

Chapter 18

Harry

I kept tossing and turning on my bed. I opened my eyes and looked in my dark bedroom. I sat up slowly then turned on my bedside lamp. I looked around and changed in my normal clothes. I wore skinny jeans and a loose flannel shirt. I slipped on my boots and headed out. I decided I would walk. All I kept thinking about was Samantha and how stupid I was for almost letting her go. I just needed to tell her something. I continued walking to her house, looking around. The town was quiet and the sky was almost black. It was so dark. 

As I walked up to her house I didn't know what I was thinking. I looked at all the windows and noticed they were all black inside. I decided to knock on the door instead of ringing the doorbell. After a few moments, Samantha opened the door and looked at me. "Harry? What are you doing here?" She asked confused. "I'm sorry Sam. I am such a douche." I said trying to explain. "No, Harry. Come here," She said holding the door wider. I entered her house. "I'm actually happy you are here," Samantha said heading upstairs. I followed behind her trying to be quiet. 

We went into her room and we both sat on her bed. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry," I began to say. "You're fine, Harry."  Samantha said. She touched my bicep and began rubbing it like it was some warm gesture. I grabbed a hold of her hand and said, "I just wanted to say I was in love with you, but I didn't know if you felt the same way. I just wanted to say it at the perfect moment and it seemed like that never happened." Sam nodded and said, "It has happened and I felt it." I scratched my head trying to think. 

"I just never knew how you felt and everything," I said. "We never talk like this." I looked up at Samantha and she nodded. "Yeah I know what you mean. I just wanted you to be the one..." She paused. I looked at her. I rubbed my thumb over her hand, making her feel comfortable about what she was going to say. "I just wanted you to be the one to take my virginity," Samantha spat out. She looked away then nervously moved her hand away from mine. She bite on her lip and looked at me. "Do you still want me to be that person?" I asked looking up at her. She turned and looked at me. She nodded her head and smiled. 

Samantha turned over to me just as she finished slipping off her pants. She smiled to me and asked, "Are you alright?" I slipped on the condom then looked at her and said, "Yeah." "Did you get it on?" Samantha asked peeking down the sheets. I rolled over on top of her. She smiled and touched my back. I began going back and forth, nothing too intense, but I was just waiting for Sam to get comfortable. "Are you alright?" I asked her. She shook her head and smiled a little bit. I moved my head and kissed her lips. I was craving for her soft lips and her taste. I kissed her jawbone and down to her neck. Samantha just laid there grasping and touching my back with her hands.

I started feeling an orgasm coming on. It started began getting more intense and I couldn't control that. I kissed her hard. Our lips going everywhere. Samantha found my hair and began twisting it. I sloppily slipped my tongue into her mouth and began swirling it around. I began thrusting Samantha and she didn't like that. She grasped and moaned a little, but dunged her nails into my back. I stopped kissing her neck and looked at her. Samantha had her eyes closed wishing the pain would go away. "I'm almost done," I said as I went back to kissing her neck. I wanted to leave marks there, but Sam was in enough pain already. 

Soon I was getting tired and I thought Samantha was too. I kissed her a couple times then I stopped. I rolled to the other side of her and faced towards her. She faced me and looked at me. "That was so unbelievable, Harry." Samantha said. She leaned over and we kissed a couple times. After Samantha stopped kissing, she plopped her head on her pillow. She closed her eyes and started drifting off. I started getting off the bed until Samantha woke up and looked at me. "Where are you doing?" She asked covering her body with the sheets. "I'm going to go to the bathroom." I said. She nodded and went back to bed.

I grabbed my clothes and headed to the bathroom. I closed the door and began changing. I was about to throw the condom away, but realized her mother would see that and question. So I threw it in the toilet and flushed the toilet. Hopefully nobody woke up from that.  I changed my clothes quick and headed out. I stopped on my way and peeked on Sam. She was snoozing loud. I started my way downstairs and headed outside.

Yes I did feel bad about leaving, but I couldn't just stay there. It was a weekday and she had school the next day and I couldn't just be there with her. I continued walking home just thinking about Sam. I knew she was happy that I was the one that took her virginity, at least that's what she wanted me too. Maybe she didn't even want me too. I didn't really know.

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author notes:

sorry about this chapter omg

i feel horrible and it sucks 

fun fact about writing this i was listening to shawn mendes life of the party

& i was pretty much crying