it's too much. I literally don't know where I should start. there are so much feelings I can't describe. first of all,I still love you,I hope you know that. probably you don't,but that's why I'm telling you this. I'm confused,because I don't know where all the feelings came from,they just wanted to meet me on my way j guess. next i'm sad,because I feel like everything is my fault and I just should shut up,because nobody even wants to hear me. then i'm kinda happy,because you texted me and that means you care about me and it's kinda a good feeling to be liked,I guess. after that I'm really tired of my family,school and the most of all...fake friends. I'm so tired of them. why do they exist? I hate the most people in school just because they've been done something wrong to me. the next is terrible. I feel so lonely and afraid,I'm not sure why,I think that's just my anxiety,which is really overwhelming..oh yes and I'm overthinking all the time,I mean...i'm doing it right now..I guess.. nevermind. I'm uninteresting,I still don't understand why you care about me or what you want,I mean,please tell me,what do you want. I really don't understand your feelings. you were away for almost 2 months... do you know how fucking lonely I was? no,how should you know. when i'd tell you what happened in the last 2 months,oh god,you'd never believe me..I think. ugh i'm talking shit again,don't care about that please,thanks:)
I still love you,but you know I really don't know what to do 'cause you really broke my heart and I feel like everytime I send you a message it's my fault to think like I do. I mean,maybe it is,right? I always think like 'what if I'm doing too much' or 'would she do this too'. it's too much.
