dear world,
i'm sorry. I tried to explain my feelings to you with this page, but I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to die right now..but i can't. I'll meet my boyfriend soon again and I can't give him this pain. that's the problem. don't we all want to die? it's just that we don't want to hurt anybody else? just tell me..if you had the chance to die without hurting others,would you do it? i really don't know if I'm honest,and why should I lie? there is so much i want to do with my friends and who i want to meet. so much is left in this world,which I'll probably never will see,but there's still hope. but from now on just see me as dead. because I am already inside and I'm kinda just waiting till the most important people in this world for me left so I can die. I kinda just wait for this. and to all my internetfriends: I'm sorry if we never meet and please don't kill yourself,but I guess you'll never know if I'm dead because I want it to stay private,I'm sorry. and to all those people out there: stay alive for me please. i try to be strong enough even if it's fucking hard. I know it works. and sometimes it's just time to cry and let out all the feelings and it's okay,yeah?! just know that as an advice.
it's okay to cry and to be sad,even if you think nobody wants that or whatever.
tbh nobody cares about how you feel.
it's mean,i know,but it's the truth.
